ok i need real advice before my laptop dies so obviously lets be realistic theres no chance its gonna work out between me and this boy because hes hetero so uh should i just avoid him or should i try to be friends with him because ignoring any feeling of attraction i still like him very much hes really fun to hang out to and nice to talk to and we have like a lot of similar interests and i also wanna be his friend but also im afraid that if i do that ill never get over him and ill keep on being sad and weird about it and giving myself false hope and maybe some dysphoria to go along with it and also probably preventing myself from liking someone else if that ever happens again
like this isnt like the previous times i thought i was attracted to someone but really i just wanted to be friends with them this is like that AND what im pretty sure is actual attraction and i know this bc i mean we dont know each other very well and the previous cases had always been like my best friend but yea so theres an element that wasnt previously there but also since the party and whenever i interact with him im always like Fuck hes so perfect and kind like wtf am i falling in love or some gay shit like that
am i a shitty person for this?
