rant.
k so theres so much shit on my mind and i just need to get it out. im so disappointed in my self about a lot of things, and i keep saying it but im not doing anything to change it. im so pissed. my grades are AWFUL and nothing is going right! i honestly dont know how i can even dream about a good college at the rate im going. i dont know why nothing is working out. im trying so much harder this year, but its falling short, its not enough. its too late to drop any classes but the thing is i dont want to. i want to prove that im not a total fail and that i truly have the potential to do so much better. on a bright note im proud of myself for having tried out for the fall play and sticking with it even with my small part. i know that i cant blame anyone else except myself for the way things are going. this is seriously so much to handle and im struggling. and im too proud to ask for help which is annoying as fuck. i seriously need to get my act together. i am not gonna let this stuff ruin my future. this is officially a promise to my self to turn things around, and i know i can, so I WILL. k well i should probs go study now i have so much stuff i wanna get done tonight. gonna be up late, but my moms right. what is one night in comparison to the rest of my life ? i think i can handle a little less sleep. this is an important moment, my goal is to turn around all and i mean every single class grade into the pretty A letter id kill for. gonna pray and get right into this. its time. this is my moment. after all the apple doesnt fall far from the tree right? RIGHT.