So I’ve no meds tonight thanks to the cock up with my tto’s and it’s like a lightbulb is stuck on inside my head,sleep is not happening! Instead I’m lying here thinking how much I love home and how badly I don’t want to go back to gateway tomorrow. Gateway have managed to ween me off self harming under restrictive conditions (no hot appliances or blades around) but if they were to set me free tomorrow I’m pretty certain things would return to what they were. I want to heal, i mean really heal. I want to stay safe because I want to,rather than out of fear or restrictions. Maybe this is just sleepless night overthinking, I’ve had such a lovely day, I feel slightly sick with anxiety now, amazing what missing a tablet can do...let’s hope tiredness overtakes me soon #bpd #bpdproblems #section17 #anxiety #missedmymeds #lovemyhome #iwanttostay