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Ughh i love him

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Is it my nervous system which gets me very doubt to have a future with him? Am i just being paranoid? I do believe in god cus above all holding religion by trusting Him makes our lives at ease and future literally uncertain but stay down our knees with open hands for a miracle is key. Marriage is scary but i wanna have a future with my man i wanna have fun fun times with him without having fear what to happen in our marriage. Im crazy about the future like scared scared as fuck

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been staying up all night til morning just to take care my love. im in a housewife simulation

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Long story short as usual there’s some unfortunate event happened between me and him we got clashed and we literally such a stubborn people and i said something that hurt him and he was mad abt it and im stubborn i remained silent and didnt say sorry but after all i hugged him from the back and idk i cried because he didn’t even hug me back that’s sad i mean after i gave up i know i was wrong please show me that you care too and give me comfort but he didn’t so i cried and still cried when he talked about anything because i think he didn’t ask or notice the problem we were facing like it’s all already solved i mean i want to be loved too like sayangin gue gituuu and i kept crying he only asked why and he stressed out that i cried bc he thought he didn’t do anything wrong im super sad that he didn’t understand:((((( so we fight and i said im done im unhappy i cant stand with you so i ask him to go home but i actually didn’t mean it yet he did leave me anyway i felt guilty so i went after him with my brother and finally found him in a traffic light when the light red so i just sit on his motorcycle and yeahh we went to a cafe with getting no proper dressed lol idk i just wanna be loved i want him to notice me when i cry i cry and i want to beloved like i know im wrong but love me tenderly and i will be tender and love you harder like idk we are quite stubborn people

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I don’t wanna stop writing about you

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Sayangku mungkin ini terdengar cliche dan kamu ga nyangka karena kita sering bgt ribut yg gak jelas terlebih aku yg bikin sumbu keributan itu. Tapi sayang, kamu tau gak isi hati aku kalo kamu robek isinya apa? Yaa hati dong nah tapi di hati itu ada kamu sayang… only HILAL di hati aku ga ada yg lain. Walaupun sekesel aku sama kamu dan se menjengkelkannya aku, aku tetap sayang kamu and i hope you feel the same. No cap! Kamu mungkin mengira kayak ga nyangka dan apa bener ini Rifka nulis begini? just because aku sering membawa disaster terlebih said something mean to you tapi itu hal atau moment dimana di luar kendali kita dan bahkan we never mean it. Tapi jujur from the deepest darkest of my heart disamping itu aku bersyukur, beruntung, dan bangga sekali punya kamu; temen curhat aku tanpa judging aku, tempat ternyaman aku, tempat aku pulang when the universe is not on my side, cahaya aku yg bikin malamku ga seseram gelapnya malam, temen ngiter aku keliling Jakarta, pokonya never a dull moment with you i mean lets have an uncountable memory together.

Sayang, as time went on aku selalu berdoa setelah apa yg kita lalui membuat kita menjadi lebih tangguh, bijak, dan baik lagi dalam menghadapi permasalahan. Aku berharap disaat moment terburuk menimpa kita, kita akan selalu tetap bersama dan mencari solusinya bukan membubarkan hubungan.

You don’t deserve anything bad in life, i will always right by your side and i want to get involved in whatever you’re doing hehe tell me everything. Don’t ever change darling please stay the same, remain Hilal , make my world turn around, and hereby convince you that i am your flesh and i am not gonna let you bleed and i’ll love you eternally. Let’s have uncountable memories together!!!

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And you can’t handle my sadness. Know im fragile yet you still defense yourself by saying that i cry because i cause it.

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April 4th. One ring to rule them all and to forever n ever