Read The Peregrine by J. A Baker
Utterly fascinating narrator. A man trying with extreme fortitude to remove himself from himself. A friend said that it was as if he was suicidal, but had not quite figured it out yet. The detestation of humanity, and the deep, swelling love of the peregrines that fill every fluid, desperate clause come across with piercing clarity and heartbreaking ardor. I would seek more information on Baker, but that would almost be a betrayal: he has not written this book, as one might expect, to give us a part of his conscious, personal self, but to give us his own annihilation (or attempt), to demonstrate his vision of splendor in dying contrast to his own misery.











