#j think?

[neur0zone]

THE SHOW WAS REQUESTED OF ME!

idk i have this song in my head 24/7

this is way less awkward to post here than on tiktok if im honest. I still suck at posting on social media lol…

[capswarmedals]

Fanart for a fanfic I made that I'm 100% glazing because I'm so sad? YOU BETCHA!!! + I am too lazy to render

[steaksex]

Numbers going up is all good this time!! Numbers stagnating is bad :((

I want the numbers to go up okay i was gonna tell a story in dms but ghat was a lot of work to stop looking but since im already distracted i think i got raped as a kid. I didnt think i did i was playong in the snow and two older boys were there and i stsyed even when the other kids left snd they kept talking about beinf sure about somethinf and ine kid would say female dog instead of bitch and i was so proud i knew bitch and wabted to tekl them all cool that i knew swears but another voice in me (probably other slter) was too shy and i knew they were planning something bad i hoped theyd rape me bexahse i wanted to have sex even though i probablywasnt older than 11 and i remember them saginf thag we should race but it was just going somewhere. And then i dont remember anything besides walking home crying and all wet and maybe pulling up my pants but for years and yeads i thought nothinf happened and i just turned back and cried bexause it got too cold but i think somethinf happened. I remember being two people like smoke and onother part one wanted to get fucked and one was scared. I used to be so scared od a tv show showing child killers ans the story about pinning a kid down to carve initials in his belly with scissors i dont know if its related though