#jabberdaw

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i can't stop thinking about the way he kissed my forehead... knowing how soft his hands are i can't stop imagining them on my face. if he held my face in his hands (again? did i imagine he did it? i can feel it now) i would melt. i want to know him better. is he a placeholder? could anyone make me feel this way? but he touched me. and he's so beautiful i couldn't believe myself. i feel bold even to express friendship inclinations.

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this is another reason i don't care for What Not To Wear, that tlc show my stepma used to watch all the time. if people just don't know how to be fashionable, need some teaching, if their self esteem is impacted by it, or they can't get a date, that can be helpful. but if they're just expressing themselves... that's what fashion IS. the difference is that the People Who Are In aren't endorsing it.

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“you try to be peg o’ my heart, but you’re lady macbeth!”

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OH ALSO 5456 words today! 🎉🎉🎈🎈 seems small (esp bc i need to do 8k per day after the worst of my depressive episode) but it's more words than i wrote in 8 days. ie 0 words. i wrote nothing for a week aaaa but rn i'm trying to do good anyway even though it's even harder than usual

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in two days i've developed a crush on 4 additional figure skaters. i nearly cried because they were so handsome and graceful and confident. they're so strong! and they look So Good in rhinestones and sheer panels. oh, palpitations!! oh, fervor!!

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i do kind of picture thalayli faces as sort of p/earlcatcher, sort of s/kydancer, sure, ig, but mostly, the same as always: kirin. and by extension deer.

and ofc their extended, elegant bodies. maybe digitigrade legs; certainly pawfeet with sheath-able talons and beans. possibly fullbloods have a tale that ends in a feathery fluff but if so they dock it when they hit adolescence. and most commonly 2 horns. 1 is considered kind of ugly, but it’s not unheard of.

i think they have 4 fingers on a hand, anisodactyl. and, importantly, a mane of some kind, sort of horse, sort of hyena.

they’re omnivorous and mostly eat insects, blind cave fish, and occasionally birds.

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i need a fun new internet handle to get me out of this funk. so the name "corvid" is going dormant til i've become well again. ideas:

-wolfgang: fun, cool, unusual, i have a recent ancestor called literally wolf, also it's funny bc of my jon shift

-axel, siv, basil: other handles i've used when taking a break from corvid

-???, xxx: both unpronounceable aloud which offers a certain sense of privacy

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i rlly wanna put on a face mask. and Also paint my nails but i go to work thursday and friday and i would have to take it off to even Possibly pass. but oxblood! it's calling me!