Have you considered the possibility that you're merely insane?
“Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.” Sudden Death Pg. 68, Rita Mae
Though I strive to not repeat what I have done I do consider the possibility, yes. I spend a lot of time thinking about a lot of different possibilities and I go over them now and again searching for new answers. Reviewing the old in as many ways as I am able. And, if I can, with others both of my strong acquaintance and otherwise (though the latter is rare.) So, if I am it's acceptable and I am doing no harm to any other living soul. I've been told I have depression by my Doctor. A byproduct of my Hashimotos Disease. I denied that for quite a while, and most of the time still do (though it catches up with me.)
If anything it's a helpful tool to me should the answer be yes. I use my experiences, my pains, mistakes and trials as learning focus for others, and because of them can connect and understand people better. Whether I am insane or not seems to not cause trouble anywhere, in any place both for me or those around me.
I like to say yes to a degree however. I feel that everyone is to some level you see, because living is one big game. One large trial, and those who aren't wild/crazy/insane enough fall through the cracks, take their lives, because they are falling through existence too quickly. It is those people I do not understand, but try to.