#ask oneladydracor

[oneladydracor]

Hihi, just wanted to say thanks for your nice and informative otherkin post. I'm pretty sure I'm a a FaeKin (still finding my identity, but pretty sure that's it) and that was just something great to read. :D *huggles*

Nawww well thank you! *hug!* This was a good thing to see to start my morning. Exploring and feeling your identity may take some time, or you may be well in tune with yourself, that’s for you to figure out!You might be wrong in things at first but don't let that discourage you! I was wrong about my kintype initially myself. :3

[oneladydracor]

March, april, may, december

8DMy favorite color is Wine Red/Burgundy. I love rich dark colors. ‘cuz I’m classy~Favorite hair and eye color? hgnnn that’s kinda hard. I love green eyes, absolutely so. But hair color? Flavors of Brunette I suppose? Really I just love long hair. So gorgeous on e’erybody.

Manga and Animu: baruu My favorite read when I was younger was Fruit Basket or FMA as for Animes I’m a lover of Death Note. For BOTH it’s Loveless <3

A random fact about me? hmm…what’s one people don’t know. okay. Chances are, if you show me something with a big-eyed cute/fluffy face or make one yourself, I am going to hug you/it and groan disgustingly. Because that’s the noise I make and response I give to thing I like. I will cuddle the every loving daylights out of something with a cute face, I can’t resist it. It’s a wonderful method of distraction/way to keep me occupied. It’s a weakness. Cloud is a good example. She’s the girl I have a kind of attraction to, she’s too fucking adorable and I can’t even handle.

[oneladydracor]

Have you considered the possibility that you're merely insane?

“Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.” Sudden Death Pg. 68, Rita Mae 

Though I strive to not repeat what I have done I do consider the possibility, yes. I spend a lot of time thinking about a lot of different possibilities and I go over them now and again searching for new answers. Reviewing the old in as many ways as I am able. And, if I can, with others both of my strong acquaintance and otherwise (though the latter is rare.) So, if I am it's acceptable and I am doing no harm to any other living soul. I've been told I have depression by my Doctor. A byproduct of my Hashimotos Disease. I denied that for quite a while, and most of the time still do (though it catches up with me.)

If anything it's a helpful tool to me should the answer be yes. I use my experiences, my pains, mistakes and trials as learning focus for others, and because of them can connect and understand people better. Whether I am insane or not seems to not cause trouble anywhere, in any place both for me or those around me. 

I like to say yes to a degree however. I feel that everyone is to some level you see, because living is one big game. One large trial, and those who aren't wild/crazy/insane enough fall through the cracks, take their lives, because they are falling through existence too quickly. It is those people I do not understand, but try to.

[oneladydracor]

What if I told you that you're not actually a made-up bullshit animal, but just really autistic?

I made a request to point out the things that dub me a special snowflake, and you don't even manage that?

What would be wrong if I WAS Autistic. I see no problem with that. Autism would not affect who I am inside. It is Mental, which does affect the physical, it has nothing to do with the spirit/soul.  I am not autistic, I am aware because there are people I know, care for greatly and respect who ARE and they are actually some of the best Persons that I do know who could beat someone down with logic. Some of them are fellow Otherkin. 

So try a bit harder. I am Otherkin it's not bullshit, I'm fairly Neurotypical (Hell I may be better off than you), and I know who I am.

[oneladydracor]

To that Anon who started going on about special snowflake and all of that.

It would be helpful if you were SPECIFIC about what things I am making up/lying about. I'd rather that you were. Please, tell me what crimes I have committed that make me a "special snowflake." If you might take the time as well to see that I'm an actual person with an about page you would note I'm pretty much 24 years old at this point. (as of the last day of this month) so "you'll grow out of it" which implies a younger age, just won't work really. I've been stuck with what I got, and also been who/what I am for a long time.

I actually really would like you to be specific, bring this on Anon, amuse me.  

[oneladydracor]

When did you first realize you were Otherkin? (also, thank you for the insight into your follow!)

Well you're welcome~

As to this question. I've used the label Otherkin for a year and a half. I've always felt like myself though, pretty much as long as I can remember. I've always been me and Me. I realized that everyone else was different over a decade ago, however. How I saw/see others was always "cute and imaginative" and in hearing that I realized that how I see myself was not the typical view. I see myself as everyone sees me, but I see myself as how I feel too. Fur, wings, ears, tail, spines, the whole kit-n-kaboodle.I used to label 'Furry' about seven years ago (denying it openly for almost the whole time) when I found that, grasping to understand what I was and why that was different from others. It's not that it's bothered me to lack a label, in that I can't really care much less. What I had wanted was to know there are others out there, maybe not just like me. Dracor like me. But at least be them and Themselves. 

Sorry that I forked into another sort of response really. But that's how I best explain that there was a time, but it was not a separation of self, but a separation of others. I've never considered myself separated. 

[oneladydracor]

sexual attractiveness to me: cismales>femboys>musclemen>transmen>cisfemales. :3

I don't...I don't understand sexual attraction half the time honestly. 

I see the body and yes, I find them beautiful in their own way. When I was young I was terrified of other people, and was, effectively  a rabbit. I was meek and shied away from people. I saw nothing good in them. 

These days I guess that's still kinda the truth, but I know who I am. So I need to understand someone to want to have sex with them. And it's not even just that. I CAN'T do such things at random, I'm so...stuck...with the emotional ties that I could never casual relationship, it's a damaging thing for me.

Says Tris, who already feels like that's how shit is for her.

[oneladydracor]

Random question cause I want to get to know you better. What's your belief system like? Gods/deities/ect?

I'll answer this publicly, actually. 

I was raised originally without a large religion (as far as I'm aware) but I moved around a lot when I was really small. So, when we finally settled with my Stepfather I was made Christian (Methodist) and then Specifically Catholic. I don't agree with it as my religion. To be perfectly blunt. I respect others for that, but it's not me. 

But I can't say that openly right now at home, at least not to my Mother, since I had to move back home.I believe there is something like a God, but that is not up to me to believe in them, it is up to them to believe in Me. I believe there are many Gods and powerful Spirits, because many people here are Gods in some way. In many aspects I consider myself a God, (Figuratively, mostly) because when I write, I see what I have created. I see the lives there that I gave breath to and the lives I did not make thriving. It's a place, and I had shaped it just as the Christian belief is that our world was shaped by God. Were I to abandon this world for a time I truly would return to find that it has changed, and things happened while I was gone. I cannot truly touch this world, nor see it with my eyes. But I created, therefore I am God, and others have come to watch this world and be Gods too. I also believe in reincarnation, the recycling of souls for various reasons individual to the soul.  

Mostly though, in this lifetime, to return to the actual question, I'd like to learn more in the Pagan aspect. I respect the Earth, and the Spirit of it, I want to practice in that way. But I do not know where to start, or how I can without being attacked by half my Family (Who disrespects almost all other religious views.) I want to learn about the other religions, because even if I do not agree with some of them or even their people, I do respect them and share space with them. 

I guess I am far more spiritual than religious. But that may be because of Sanketsu in some small way, my Shadow would be here even if I were not Christian raised and by the accordance of the Christian Faith I'm probably hellbound. He is, after all, a part of who I am, the whispers in the dark, the blood I want to shed, those negative things I think/do/feel/say, which are "unchristian and will send me to hell."