#jaelajae

[jaelajae]

Personal Tag

Thank you for the tag Beck, wildest-swift Date and time: 14th June 2015, 10:02pm Average hours sleep: around 6 hours Last thing I googled: tumblr likes by Tay Nickname: Jae Birthday: 1st May 1991 Gender: Female Height: 158 cm Favourite colour: RED and all its shades A place that makes me happy: 
In the company of people that matter to me, anywhere Tay related, sunset and beach How many blankets do you sleep under: under a proper blanket and my RED taylor blanket Favourite drink: water, cappuccino, matcha latte, soy chai latte, milk tea, lemon lime bitters, red wine esp cabernet sauvignon Favourite food: steak Last movie I watched in the theater: Pitch Perfect 2 Dream vacation: an all-expenses-paid year-long world tour holiday break with my other half or simply any Taylor Swift - related getaway Dream job: to swift through medical shifts as paramedic nurse or a doctor like I’m made for the job OR to have mad baking skills and own and run a cute little cat cafe Dream: to meet/hug/kiss Taylor Swift in person, get an autograph and have polaroid(s) taken with her; to own a beach house with my other half; to learn how to play the piano; to learn how to swim and have the best Caribbean-like or tropical island hopping holiday Reblogging cos I wanna tag swiftlytothepointe

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(Meanwhile in NZ waiting to be picked up from the airport...) OH. HEY GIRLFRIEND! LET ME HAVE YOU IN MY ARMS.

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Finding an echo of the voice i lost

As much as i wanna get noticed by Tay, tonight is one of those nights i just Tumblr cos i wanna share in other ppl's daily rumblings, witty ideas or personal posts. When you lose your voice in your aimless thoughts, not wanting to see your friends and just want to escape; finding comfort in being anonymous... You Tumblr for yourself.

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Car crash: "heaven cant help me now!"

So i just woke up with a messed up head cos in my dream I fell asleep while driving; it was like a near death experience, im glad i broke out of this nightmare. i felt my life leave my body and it seemed so real in the dream. i could feel the car travelling 100km/hr on the freeway, and it was late at night, i was the only car on the road, i was swerving and couldn't make my body control the car, although i could see i was about to crash. My dream was like a continuation of last night's long drive home, i was exhausted and sad and my mind was wandering, distracted. This memory got mixed with the memory of the car crash i had years ago and i screamed out loud in my head to wake me up and hope everything was just a dream the same way i did in the past. Im awake now, but the memory of the accident came flooding back in.. This time, i lost control of the car cos i lost control of my body. What is this fear? What's with this darkness? Why do i feel so alone? Why do i feel so out of control? Am I subconsciously looking for an escape? Am I subconsciously sabotaging my existence?

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Personal - tagged

Thank you for the tag Beck, wildest-swift Date and time: 14th June 2015, 10:02pm
Average hours sleep: around 6 hours
Last thing I googled: tumblr likes by Tay
Nickname: Jae
Birthday: 1st May 1991
Gender: Female
Height: 158 cm
Favourite colour: RED and all its shades
A place that makes me happy: In the company of people that matter to me, anywhere Tay related, sunset and beach
How many blankets do you sleep under: under a proper blanket and my RED taylor blanket
Favourite drink: water, cappuccino, matcha latte, soy chai latte, milk tea, lemon lime bitters, red wine esp cabernet sauvignon
Favourite food: steak
Last movie I watched in the theater: Pitch Perfect 2
Dream vacation: an all-expenses-paid year-long world tour holiday break with my other half or simply any Taylor Swift - related getaway
Dream job: to swift through medical shifts as paramedic nurse or a doctor like I'm made for the job OR to have mad baking skills and own and run a cute little cat cafe
Dream: to meet/hug/kiss Taylor Swift in person, get an autograph and have polaroid(s) taken with her; to own a beach house with my other half; to learn how to play the piano; to learn how to swim and have the best Caribbean-like or tropical island hopping holiday I tag: swiftlyso dakotainthewoods misakiswift13 tokyoswifty1989 my-cup-of-tswift emilyspinecone

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taylorswift throwback to the 4th May when you decided to spend few seconds of your precious time to personally grace my Tumblr notification with a Follow. Life has never been the same; and i have been in a State of Grace... As if i am standing on holy ground! Believing that you at have at least read that a "jaelajae" exists... gave me the reason to be thankful and grateful for having soldiered on in life. And now, i have a different fervour, a different energy; joy and love about all things in life that otherwise wouldve weighed me down... Because you taught me gratitude. I am making new friends in this swifterhood that would last me my lifetime; you open up new horizons and common ground for us to talk, a music to drive in during roadtrips, a soundtrack to unite our hearts in the quietness of a shared moment. You make the world small and connected because you constantly give us so much of yourself even when you dont have to. You help us find the 'extra' bit of us that makes us little less than ordinary; and you give us the courage to stand on our own, to find a voice to speak up, a blank space to write our thoughts and a world full of moderns and classics, while holding onto the foundations that make friendships withstand the test of time. Thank you for the sacrifices you make to go against the tide till the tide goes along with you. Thank you for the smiles, the laughters, the hugs, the words, the songs, and the unspoken values you have instilled in us who look up to you. Thank you for being that one shining star, that sunshine that dispels all darkness in our minds. Thank you for being taylorswift. Forever and always, in awe of who you are and who you are not, jaelajae

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Tay... I KNOW PLACES... For THIS LOVE.

taylorswift good morning... So they said you might be online... Whether or not you see this post... I just want/need someone to tell me things are going to be ok... I KNOW PLACES is my song right now as i find myself in a relationship with someone who i cant be with. We've been together for nearly 2 years now, in a secret relationship.. Only few people know about us... She lives interstate, we live a secret relationship that our families do not know of... Because if we love in the open, they will disown us, she may be beaten up again by her mum, and i will disappoint my family for turning out to be gay. The world will tear us apart. I do not want to lose her in my life but more and more, the reality of family conflicts if we got hunted, they will take us down, and set us apart as if in cages and boxes. We used to run away, do getaways and at least, to some extent, feel freedom in the arms of each other... But now, even that is dangerous. When her mum found out about us, she threatened me that if she ever sees us again, she will make my life worse, ruin my family's name because of the stigma that being gay is disgusting. She even threatened my girlfriend with a cutter on her throat saying that she'd rather have her dead than turn out to some"thing" that brings shame to the family. When the reality of this sinks in, HOW CAN I POSSIBLY FIGHT FOR THIS? I wonder what is there to fight for? There seems to be no future in same sex relationships; no kids, no security... And distant from the family. I want her in my life forever; i never been so in love and cared so much about someone against all odds; or loved someone irrespective of anything / sexes or whatever. But what can i possibly offer? With me, it's all hurt; it's all running away; there's no security, there's no protection. I wish i was born a guy.. a man. I'd fight for her, offer her a secured future that comes in marriage and acceptance... But. I am NOT. And there's nothing I can do about it... CAN THIS BE LOVE? Where I LET GO OF HER HANDS.... And THIS LOVE WILL COME BACK TO ME? This love left a permanent mark, this love is glowing in the dark.... But i dont want it to be in the dark anymore. I desire 100% sunshine on her, freedom that comes from free sailing; not the sinking ship. And i dont know how to LET HER GO Without thinking i'm giving up on her....

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taylorswift hey Tay! LOVE STORY on Radio welcomed us back together!! Rio and I live in different states and we're here to spend looooong weekend together !!! We love you so much!!