sender wipes the blood from receiver's face, murmuring, "let's get you cleaned up." (billy)
Billy's left for dead. Lying on the floor of a stranger's house with scribbled papers surrounding him in lieu of funeral flowers. Everything's blurred. Muted. Dim. The haze of whatever fucking drug cocktail Max injected into his neck is pulling him under like tides lapping up something dead along the shoreline. Slowly, slowly swallowing him out to sea. Disappearing into the depths, forever. No grave. No memorial. No memory. Billy's just alone. And this how it ends. Billy's always known that this is how it will end for him. Because he's always been alone. Not a person, but a plot device in everyone else's narrative. Used up by adults who either pucker up or throw a punch. Eaten up by peers, never acknowledged as anything else but 'Look at it go!' Then left for dead. Only now, it's gonna stick. He swears it's gonna stick.
Except he's kinda fighting to open his eyes. Like there's something still in him. Something Neil couldn't beat out . A boy, defiant, pushing back. Lashes flutter, strain. Billy's eyelids feel heavy, and it's like he can't quite fucking do it. But every time his eyelids sink, something grips him. Makes his blood pulse like the final flash of light before it dies. Fear. It's not fear of death. It's fear at what Neil's gonna do. Because he didn't get Max home. What fresh hell awaits him. And then Billy remembers. What can Neil do to him if he's dead?
Tears well up. Pool around his eyes. Well, Neil could bury him here.
That's when he feels hands on him. Hands that do not hurt. This is new. This is foreign. They cup his face, gentle. So gentle. Maybe it's death coming to take him. Billy doesn't believe in this shit, but it's a nice fucking thought. Makes getting put out of his misery less of a goddamn tragedy. His brows knit, confused. Uncertain. He tries to focus. Squints through blurry vision to see a pair of dark eyes. Long dark hair. Someone clad in leather and a single earring. What the hell. He's dreaming. Dreaming up someone like him.
Billy feels rather than sees a thumb pass along the top of his lip, wiping blood away like it's some scared and tender act. @jagcula's voice comes through muffled, murmured: 'Let's get you cleaned up.'
Logically, it's the drugs that make him feel numb. Like he's out of his body. Or maybe his body just isn't here. But Billy knows. Knows his body's going dead to the world from such gentleness. Lips move, a whispered strain: "W-why?" He closes his eyes. Swallows. Tries again. "--are you doin' this?" Billy wants to ask who the hell he is, but that seems less important to him than the why. Which is why he fought to get that out first before everything goes dark. Billy's eyelids flutter shut, and his face falls into the hands that cradle him.