#jarvis.speaks

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HEELLOOOO EVERYBODY!

Having a nice weekend?

Good! Long time no see. Guess what?

Hawaii is having another natural disaster.

As some of you know, there was a big storm all across the US, however, it hit Hawaii BIG TIME. Its still going on and as with rain and wind, theres a bunch of flooding, wind knocking things down, and what comes with that is a lot of people losing their homes. One of my family members and my ex girlfriend has trees through their roofs, and majority of our islands and people have little to no home anymore.

And surprisingly, no one is talking about it. Its only TikTok, MAYBE Twitter, but that's it. No news outlets are covering it, its a mess.

And of course, with that, just like my Maui Fire Relief post, I needed this to reach AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE. So I will be tagging the fandom, the usual, along with a list of places you can donate or whatever.

And once again, just like my Maui post, if you're a tourist that is complaining about your vacation; GO FUCK YOURSELF.

Hawaii News Now list of places you can donate

Civil Beat list

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i see everyone’s oc/self insert x canon ships and i get so happy like YES YOUR EW BOY LOVES YOU/THEM SO MUCH

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guys. matsunos confirmed chubby. i’m LIVING.

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karamatsu but he does the “i’m stuck!” porn trope around the house while you’re dating, hoping he’d get fucked in the ass.

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hmmmm ichimatsu liking when you get your nails done because head scratches

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good morning/afternoon/evening.

TLDR; i’m here.

today is a day where i finally give life updates and just everything that’s been going on lately since my last “wow i’m so active” post. ik i’ve been making content again but i feel like i owe ppl an explanation of sorts.

now, i know i kinda disappeared off the face of the tumbles for a while (read: a whole damn year 😭). a lot’s been happening and I wanted to just… explain a bit.

firstly though, i’d like to thank everyone who’s supported me on this account and sent me asks even though i sucked at delivering it.

i would like to thank the people i’ve met on here, you’ve been such good mutuals to me and i love all of you 🫶

thank you to anyone and everyone for liking my shit ass writing too. yall have shitty taste but— i loved making that for your consumption.

thank you to the people who reblogged my maui fire post, i love each and every one of you for your support for my home and my culture.

all of you doing all of everything for me, has been such a wonderful experience and i cannot be any more grateful for having wonderful mutuals and followers and lurkers.

now for my explanation on where i’ve been and making content;

• honestly? the mental health tanked. i got stuck in this loop where i felt like i was only making content to please people, and it stopped feeling fun for me.

• i also started feeling like my posts were getting boring or repetitive, and that made me even more hesitant to show up here.

• on top of that, i’ve been grieving a lot— still lowkey depressed about losing my grandfather and now, my best friend. really knocked me sideways.

• and, i’ve been working through some heavy identity stuff. for the longest time, i labeled myself genderfluid on here, but a year later of a lot of therapy, talking to my besties, i since realized that i am agender/transmasc. struggled to settle on something but…now im here. me.

now, i won’t be deactivating this blog, it’ll be here just for ‘memorial’(?) sake, if that’s the right word to use. or until i can get my ass back on track.

to whoever sent me asks, i won’t be deleting them until i figure out what i’ll do with em so, don’t freak out!

and again, i know this isn’t such a big deal and some outsiders are gonna be like ‘literally who the fuck are you?’ but again, to the people who are wondering.

i’m still here. unfortunately….ew.

i’m pinning this so it’ll replace my maui fire post but i’ll put the link here so that you can find it and donate, whatever you want, get it out there, etc.

um….

hm.

i’m not really sure how to sign this off. other than, i’m sorry for being away. and being an emo fuck.

thank you to everyone for everything.

i love you.

- jarvis. now known as mason.

p.s.

i still don’t like atsushi.

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thinking now…

wouldn’t osomatsu be a better yandere love interest? choromatsu is an obvious one due to his…obvious nature.

but osomatsu might be scarier.

because if you REALLY think about it, he’s still…como se dice…. ‘messed up’ over the fact that his brothers left him and moved on without him. and the fact that he now has to live in fear of abandonment?

first of all, you really think you could leave his sight?

i’ve also thought about this with my friend. it would be kinda scary because if we mixed his fear of abandonment and yandere stuff? fucked. you know why?

either he wouldn’t even KNOW he’s being crazy about you…

he’d just sit there in his thoughts like, “is it normal that i wanna see where they’re at right now? i mean….i just wanna see….oh look there they are. is it weird that i’m following them from a distance like this…? i just wanna see if they’re safe…”

or he’s well aware and he just hides it super well with his normal optimism.

deadly.

he makes everything look like a coincidence. but not too much to where you start to think otherwise. he’s his usual ‘osomatsu’ self but at the back of his head, he’s doing this shit to get close to you. hug from behind? you think it’s just him being a perv to touch your chest. to him? not only is it to touch your chest, but to inhale your scent so he can engrave it into his brain. stealing a sip of your drink? ah. he’s just broke like always, let him. to him? indirect kiss. and he puts his mouth EXACTLY where yours was.

as for the deadly part, whether he’s aware or not, he punches the living daylights out of ANYONE who messes with you. like..he’s protective of his brothers to an extent, but with you?

he gains this new sense of…’i need them to be safe at all times. no matter where they go, i go.” and he NEEDS to be by you at all times.

thats it. for now.

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i feel like it would take time for oso to tell you ‘i love you’

of course he showed it in his own way, you knew that he loved you, but he never outright said it. not that you minded much, you just assumed he just wasn’t ready. you knew of osomatsu’s fears with change and an actual relationship with someone.

so when you say it to him, he just responds with “really?” while he rubs the back of his neck.

when you guys first started going out, he was still afraid, again, he’s afraid of change and the whole thing with relationship equaling to growing up. he never EVER had a proper relationship, so for a while, he was very very careful when it came to the emotional aspects of your guys’ relationship. even when he had his chances at being vulnerable with you, he just clammed up and covered it up with an osomatsu-like answer and his boyish grin. (aka “you think too much!”)

but he finally said when you guys were out on a late night drive because you were craving chicken nuggets from mcdonalds. the tired look in your eyes as you kept them on the road, the fact that you were still in your pajamas and for some reason, he all of a sudden just started picturing his life with you and after he felt the same *badump* in his heart when you guys saw each other for the first time, it just slipped out of his mouth.

“i love you, [name]….”

you nearly swerved the fucking car when you heard it come out of his mouth and your heart leaped with joy as you responded with a soft smile.

“i love you too, osomatsu”

and goddammit, why the FUCK did it take a late night drive to fucking mcdonalds for him to FINALLY say it?

AND EYES ON THE ROAD, [NAME]