there are days when I feel more pretty then normal and I have high confidence and overall things are great
then there are days when I don't think I look as pretty, for whatever reason but overall my confidence is still good and I'm feeling alright so I just don't look at mirrors and focus more on my inside self then my outside self and I'm chilling
sometimes I don't look pretty and I don't have good confidence or it's just a down day, I normally just bedrot and brainrot which isn't healthy but if it ain't broke don't fix it
this is probably one of the first times that I felt like I looked really pretty (just caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror and my eyes look nicer then normal, my eyebrows being thick doesn't bother me, my hair is only a little greasy and still very smooth and in the lighting my skin looked almost clear) but I feel like shit. like I've had one of my worst bad days in a while and was expecting to be fully bla but seeing myself look pretty somehow made it 10x worse bc where is THAT person when I want to go to class, or hang out with my friends, or dress nice? why is the small amount of prettiness I have reserved for a version of my that will only waste it. even if I still didn't feel great tomorrow I'm sure looking pretty in the morning would make me try, but I doubt that it will still be the case, I already feel a bit disgusted with myself