#jbobby

[lenoseknows]

March 16, 2018

4 Steps of Hennessy: 1. Maybe 2. No 3. NO 4. NO!

[avengingxmarine]

Things get worse from there because Sammy told me he'd gotten up, wanting to come after me and Dean, and found the man in the black Seville outside Bobby's house.  He rode in the Seville to the trailhead, and found us from there.  I don't even know how to get my head around that.  I feel like I should punish him somehow, but the truth is I should be punishing myself.

April 19th, 1991

John’s Journal

[avengingxmarine]

Went to see Silas last night.  He's an old friend of Bobby's, some kind of soothsayer who sells tired.  I went to his place and his daughter told me he's in a coma...since last November 2, the seventh anniversary of Mary's death.  When I went to see him at the hospital, he snapped out of it long enough to tell me a couple things I didn't want to hear.One, he thinks that Sammy's special somehow.Two, Dean and I need to be ready 'for what's to come.'Then he was gone again, out cold.  What the hell does it mean?  Why Sammy?  What does he have to do with any of this?  And what is coming?  Silas either couldn't say anything else, or wouldn't.  He said I brought him out of his coma, and then we was gone back into it. Tomorrow I'm going to leave Sammy with Bobby so I can take Dean deer hunting.  It's out of season, but the Dakotas are lousy with deer and Dean needs to pull a trigger to sharpen him up.  Also I need to think about Sammy.  Why was Ms. Lyle so interested in him?

April 18th, 1991

John’s Journal

[avengingxmarine]

In Sioux Falls to meet Bobby, boys along since it's not safe for them to be in Albuquerque anymore.  Between the two of us, Bobby and I hashed out what's been going on with Ms. Lyle and the others.  Bobby thinks I'm a fool for not wanting to believe that demons really exist, and he's not shy about telling me.  Probably he's right.  All the signs were there with Ms. Lyle.  But if you buy demons, you have to buy Hell, and if you buy Hell, you have to buy Satan, which means you have to buy God, right?  I can't sign on to one believe if it means I have to take on the others.  Only Bobby says that he's never run across a demon who's laid eyes on the Devil.  Most demons apparently don't even believe he exists.  The way Bobby put it is that demons are a lot like us where belief is concerned.  I don't wee it that way.  if demons exist, they are nothing like us.But i guess I think they do exist.  And I think Ms. Lyle was one.  I was in bed with her...that thing...and it was a demon.  I let it trick me away from the mission.  I let myself be led, I let myself be convinced that everything can be normal again, and it was all a tactic.  She wanted something from me, and she thought she knew how to get it.And she was almost right.  I've been lonely since Mary...I wanted to be touched.  Just contact.  And looking back, it makes me sick.

April 7th, 1991

John’s Journal