back at it again at 1:12 when work tomorrow
i am making notes for a red helen/bob and black helen/evelyn fic in which helen contributes heavily to evelyn’s recovery despite herself and evelyn’s tech actually does get stolen by capitalists the exact people she despises so now she gotta help
and helen just keeps poking holes through her trauma inspired ideals and violet is around calling her out on being a rich little shit which is a perspective she’s NEVER even considered
anyway maybe evelyn will be their tech gadget person but i feel likeeee,
evelyn definitely needs to stay a goddamn villain in a way or she won’t stay a black romance
it can’t ACTUALLY be a full ‘recovery’ in the sense that her whole identity is wiped out. so i gotta like, pick a part of her ideology that she absolutely does not do away with and that she can combine with her recovery and new insight and inspire her to a new
Neutral chaotic mindset
probably her anti-authoritarianism and self-sufficiency ideals, she’s gonna be redistributing tech like crazy
learns to respect the masses and empower them (gasp so syndrome’s dreams become real?)
new conflict with helen: these people do shit things and become villains sometimes and thats not great
teasing: ‘isn’t that what you’re for?’
so i guess she goes from: remove fake fake fake superheroes that make us defenseless (destructive impulse) to giving people the means to defend themselves - against propaganda and consumerism and also violence (constructive impulse)
i.e. needs to work through trauma (U responded just as much like a child - winston is gonna tell her that)
so she NEEDS to unlearn her toxic af disdain for the masses and her ‘no one should trust anyone they don’t know - but also oops winston did know me but he shouldn’t have trusted me ’ contradictory bullshit