3:52 AM April 16, 2025
It’s been four months since I became unemployed. Once a science teacher, now reduced to nothing—or at least, that’s how it feels. Unmotivated, unsure. I used to dream of becoming a doctor, but with a shaky MCAT score and stumbling grades, I barely applied to any schools. I was too embarrassed to tell anyone.
Lately, I’ve felt lost. And jealous. Jealous of everyone else’s perceived success, even though I know how fake that can be. I just… I feel stuck, like life has kept moving forward without me.
This past month has been a blur—late nights, waking up past noon, no energy, no drive. I spend most days convincing myself that tomorrow I’ll start studying again. Tomorrow I’ll apply to more jobs or schools. But tomorrow never comes.
Still, I want to try something different. I need to explore my options. Let the jealousy push me to act instead of sink. This page will be my floating cloud—a place to untangle the mess in my head. To-do lists. Daily updates. Random thoughts. Let it all unfold here. A diary, a mind dump, whatever it needs to be.
