#jemily thoughts

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ANOTHER JEMILY THOUGHT

Being a human is fucking exhausting some times, and Emily and JJ definitely feel that.

 Emily feels that when she gets stuck in her head. Having your thoughts run around in frenzy for hours on end is not fun. She always tries to push it off but they find ways to subconsciously manifest. Somedays it’s her insecurities and worries that surface. On those days, her hands shake a little more and she makes sure to hold back whatever she does. Emily tunes herself down and watches everyone around her religiously. On other days, it’s simply the sheer energy and amount of thoughts in her head. They move so fast that she can barely keep up and it leaves her confused and frazzled. But, Emily would never let that show, upfront at least. Then, she makes sure to bustle around more than normal. She doesn’t stop to make the little conversations that she usually does, fearing that if she stops everything will spill out and she will shut down. She will stim constantly, rubbing her hands up and down her legs to feel the fabric and ground herself. Emily will also consistently shake her fingers or her pen to try and hide how much her head is getting to her. Over time, JJ learns to pick up her exhaustion, and can tell by the way Emily greets people in the morning or pours her coffee. (let me explain) Normally, Emily is an Americano kind of girl with more coffee and barely any additives. However, when she’s having an insecurity brain day she adds a shit ton of sugar. The sugar is jarring and gives her something to focus on (no matter how much she hates it). When she’s having a brain overload day, she adds a lot of milk to get her the caffeine she needs for the day but dulling its taste so she can like ground herself and not get too hyper. Both of these kinds of days make Emily want to shut off her brain, but only around JJ. Her guard is still high enough that she just collapses on JJ when they get home. JJ has to move her around so that she can just hold her on the couch. Eventually Emily will slowly open up again, but she typically needs 12 hours to recuperate so she just keeps JJ close and kisses her several times (just to remind herself how much she loves her gf and that JJ is always there to help her) JJ will cook a simple meal or order in Chinese takeout and they “watch” Russian/other foreign movies on a loop until Emily falls asleep in JJ’s cradle hold. (don’t worry she carries her up to bed)

JJ is a little different. She succumbs more to the pressures of work, rather than the bustle of her head. Her job busies her head typically, not giving her time to dole on her insecurities and other thoughts. However, her job is a lot. JJ is not only a profiler, but also the one team member that seems to be consistently rational. Jennifer is like everyone’s impulse control and reality check rolled into one. Every anchor does need to be pulled up from time to time, as does JJ. The pressure of keeping her team together is enough to nearly crush her sometimes and JJ hates it. She hates that she needs to ask for help and she hates the fact that sometimes she can’t handle everything on her own. Well, there is one person that she trusts to hold her up, Emily. JJ likes to hide herself away when her brain begins to act up. She avoids showing her face out of her office and turns off her lights. JJ likes to work by the light of her small desk lamp because it helps to reduce her world to just what she can see. Some days she puts her cases to the side and takes out the most mundane thing she can find to do. Sometimes, it’s as little as signing her name on files and leaving the rest blank for later. Having that small sense of accomplishment helps to tame her imposter syndrome and give her some peace. On the outside, JJ is overly nice. She never lets her exterior crack, going out of her way to do things for others to allow herself to stack her lists full. She’ll offer to run out multiple times for the office’s Coffee, she’ll help reorganize someones desk, or she’ll go to Garcia and help her with her newest set of trinkets. Emily can see when she’s overexerting herself and learns to step in. JJ is hesitant in the beginning, but eventually follows Emily’s command. Emily will simply text her and ask her a scale of 1-10, to describe how bad it is and tailor a plan according to that. On more mild days, she takes JJ home and helps her to work out the nervous energy whether it be dancing, moving around in the kitchen, an actual workout (Emily’s not the most fond of those), or a workout. On more severe days, Emily takes JJ and sits her down in a cuddle on the couch. She makes sure to repeat and go over all of the things that JJ has done to help others, herself especially, supplementing her sweet words with gentle massages and brain kisses. JJ is sometimes resistant but often times Emily will switch to another language that JJ can’t respond in and continue. JJ can take any amount of time up to a full 2 days to get back to normal, seeing as for her it is less frequent but more draining. She always makes sure to thank Emily by either tapping thrice on her blackbird tattoo, or tracing star somewhere on Emily. 

This may not be the most accurate but like yk it’s my HC so :) enjoy ig

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Jemily Thoughts Pt. 13

CALLIGRAPHY (i have been wanting to do this one for a while lmao) - tis an extension of a HC that i sent to the lovely @jemily--prentiss :) (no Will and Jemily happens right before Doyle)

Loops, curves, and sophisticated edges entailed much of Emily’s hours on Sundays. She sat crammed behind a desk, with the staunch French tutor and tried not to let the ink stain or run. It was harsh, the tutor’s words cut sharply into her, almost mimicking her mother’s dignitary tone. Emily loved the beautiful nature of the calligraphy, admiring its intricacy and the additional emotion that it added to the message it conveyed. Eventually, she learned to shut out the cutting words of her tutor and focused on the art itself. The calligraphy was freeing and helped her to show that the message had more emotion than just the words on the paper. Emily moved away to college and spent much of her time unlearning the strict and arbitrary ways of life that her mother drilled in her during her childhood. Luckily, calligraphy was not one of them. Her life became busy but sometimes the woman would sit down and write letters to anyone, sometimes even herself, about anything. Those letters were never sent, but she felt like she could bare her soul without the fear of judgement or the fickleness of other people’s behavior. When she joins the BAU, she meets JJ and the calligraphy ramps up again. She does a good job of hiding it on hidden slips of paper, trying to make her half-aware written words invisible to the prying eyes around her. She does a good job of it. That is, until Doyle happens. She had just gotten into a relationship with a woman that seemed to understand her better than life. It was in its baby steps and things got ripped apart, everything around her flipping on its head instantaneously. She had to go to Paris, and forget her old life, uprooting the tethers that she had spent so long with. But she couldn’t do it. Not 100% at least. She started the calligraphy letters, needing them to feel human. But this time, she sent them. She sent them to the only person whose eye’s she trusted more than her own. She sent them to the person who she know would understand and lovingly remember each word. She sent them to JJ. JJ received the first letter and her jaw dropped. She recognized the style of Emily’s handwriting but was blown away by the calligraphy. JJ spent hours upon hours, reading and rereading, the words because she knew the thought that Emily put into each word. It was mesmerizing. So JJ decided that she would learn too, and she would make it into their thing. She practiced on scraps of paper between files, in notebooks on the jet, and looking at Emily’s style. She sent her first letter in calligraphy 1 month before Emily was able to return. It was shocking to Emily, but her heart warmed at the letter that she received. JJ was making that part of Emily her own. Emily returns and despite the fact that life is still rocky, they make of it what they can. JJ asks Emily to teach her calligraphy and the woman lights up. They take to it with a fervor and JJ falls deeper in love with Emily. She watches the brunette’s ease with which she guides the pen to create the letters. She soon begins to get the hang of it too. JJ begins to develop her own styles. She starts to make her own loops, ones that compliment Emily’s. The styles fit perfectly together, just like them. 

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Jemily Thoughts pt. 14

here’s to hiking with our favorite gays :) 

Emily was glad that she had an outdoorsy girlfriend. It provided their relationship with balance; JJ being the athletic one and Emily being the artistic one. From time to time, they would do things that crossed into a new territory of the other’s world. For example, right now, Emily was lacing up her shoes to go hiking. She was excited, to say the least, which was different from her usual attitude to doing the athletic things that JJ suggested. She was mainly excited to see the scenery and walk by JJ, taking pictures of everything they saw. She had made the blonde promise that they would do an easy trail so she wasn’t too worried. (JJ had other plans in mind) They made it to the trail and Emily glanced over to sign. It said something about being a double 0 trail, and Emily simply assumed that it meant beginner. Oh, how she was wrong. The first few minutes were easy. The breeze was subtle in their hair and Emily only saw the stretches of flat land in front of her. Hiking this was going to be easy, and they would probably be done in an hour and a half, tops. JJ grabbed Emily’s hand and they moved at an enthusiastic pace (JJ was speedwalking and Emily was clambering gracefully behind her). Then, when Emily wasn’t expecting it, JJ takes a sharp turn into the tree line. She knew about the hidden path that took them to an enclosure she’d wanted to show Emily for a while. Emily’s eyes widened as the terrain suddenly became rougher under her feet and she snapped out of the daze that their steady pace had put her in. Repeated inquisitions get her nothing out of JJ and they went forward with no visible end in sight. Emily got more and more nervous at the idea of not knowing where she was going. Finally, JJ helped her step off of a large rock and past a thick bush. The sight in front of her took her breath away. The clearing had a little rock formation that acted as a hut and a small oasis of water pooled nearby. The plants glistened as if they were prepared for a movie shot. It was truly ethereal and Emily had been left speechless. She looked in wonder over at JJ, whose smirk was nearly covering her whole face. They wandered around the area and JJ made a flower crown for Emily. Emily’s mind changed about hiking that day. From then on, they made a point to regularly visit that enclosure when they could, even spending one Valentine’s day there. Emily learned to see the beauty in the little things on their hikes and she encouraged JJ to go on harder trails. It became a tradition and a passion that they shared with their kids as well.

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Jemily thoughts Pt. 7

JJ is secretly really good at pottery. She tried in once in a class in high school and learned that she just naturally had the talent. So when she was a kid, she would make a bunch of pottery (her parents got her a pottery wheel and clay and stuff) and bring it home. The first time she made a mug, her parents put in the cabinet and Roslyn used it daily. After roslyn passed, JJ made a pottery piece in her honor. It was a mug in an obscure shape with some of her sister’s favorite words and phrases and butterflies painted on. They modeled after her sister’s hopeful personality and the uniqueness that made her such a role model to JJ. After she moves out, JJ doesn’t get much time to do pottery and eventually lets it go. Life simply moves too fast. That is, until Emily schedules a surprise date at a pottery place. JJ is very excited because she had never told Emily of her secret talent. Emily joked about how if they were really bad at it, they could just make inappropriate shapes and move on. JJ laughed quietly. The date rolled around and saying that Emily was pleasantly surprised was an understatement. Her girlfriend moved around the room deftly, relying on her years of experience, the freeing feeling coming back. Emily couldn’t keep her eyes off of JJ and nearly forgot to do her own project. She watched an unparalleled happiness show in JJ eyes and felt delighted. Though Emily is graceful, she’s not the best at being delicate. Her mug came out lopsided but she was still able to shape into the inappropriate mug she had in mind. JJ worked easily to create a beautifully symmetrical mug that symbolized her relationship to Emily. That night they talked about it and Emily got to know how JJ was so good with her hands. It was a treasure that they both cherished, the jemily mug (as garcia called it) and the boob mug. Emily pushed JJ to keep going with pottery and she did. Occasionally the blonde would sneak one of her new made mugs into the cabinet just to see Emily’s reactions. She also made a specialized one for each of their kids, and more as they grew up. :) SHOULD I TURN THIS INTO A SHORT FIC?

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Jemily  Thoughts pt. 15

okay we have finally reached domestic showering, courtesy of @jay-writes-jemily sooo on we go :)

Domestic showers are one of the finer things in Jemily’s relationship, and not mentioned quite as often. In the great words of one Jennifer John Jareau, “Sometimes a girl just needs to wash her hair”. That applies especially after a long case, knowing that the team spent hours on their feet to work relentlessly in hopes of catching the unsub. On those nights, it’s usually JJ that has to drag Emily into the shower. The brunette is more than content to simply pass out and forego the shower. But JJ knows that the hotel and all of those workdays definitely had her tense. JJ while set the shower temperature, usually opting for hot water but judging the intensity with how bad the case was. Emily gets out the towels and then just clings to JJ’s side. Eventually, the shower is ready and they get in slowly. Emily made sure to not skimp on the showers, so there is plenty of room for both women. They each take their turn under the water, letting themselves warm up. Usually, it’s the one that is less exhausted that washes the other’s hair first. For example, if JJ had a rough time wrangling media, Emily will step in to make sure that she uses enough pressure to properly wash JJ’s hair and release subsequent pressure that way. If Emily had a rough time, then JJ will slowly massage her hands through Emily’s waves and make sure she gets every spot. On days where mental health is bad for one of them, it’s a subliminal coaxing to get them into the shower. Every second spent washing the other is a second spent reminding them of the unconditional love that they promised to. Next, they slowly take their turns washing their body. Emily and JJ have two different body washes because they like their own unique scents. It’s something that each has memorized, finding comfort in the other’s trademark aroma. The shower is the place for gentleness, letting JJ and Emily carefully ground each other in themselves. It’s an intimacy that pervades more than just their bodies, also connecting their minds. After the shower, both women grab their towels and clothes to change. There are often few words spoken, not counting the whispered affirmations and reminded love, the nonverbal is more important. Their last thing is to fall into bed, tangled again, to fall asleep to each other’s heartbeat.

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Jemily thoughts pt.8

Emily and JJ build legos in their free time, after Henry is born. Okay, hear me out. Emily loves to do things hands on and JJ likes creating stories. So, once someone gifted Henry a LEGO set. Turns out, Henry is more of a cars/trains fan rather that building fan. So, to not let this go to waste, Emily suggests that they try it once on a home date night. Henry is asleep, they have their wine, and soft music is playing in the background. The first time, Emily makes the cardinal mistake of dumping all of the bags out into one big pile before they read the instructions. (JJ didn’t condone that) The pile of pieces looks daunting but knowing that they’re both highly intelligent, they should be able to do it. Right? Maybe. JJ wants to sort out the large heap of pieces in front of them but Emily is more inclined to simply start putting pieces together. They come to the conclusion that Emily will put pieces together as JJ hands them to her while she sorts the heap. When Emily finishes the first part of the Star Wars, she get’s super excited. JJ sees the spark of child-like wonder and enthusiasm in her wife's eyes. (ofc she melts) They continue on this routine until JJ has sorted all of the pieces. This expedites their process and JJ begins on the second manual. With two sets of hands and endless things to talk about, the women zoom through the LEGO Set. After 2 hours, their task is complete. They marveled at the finished Luke Skywalker X-wing fighter ship. Their wine glasses empty and hearts full, the women celebrated. It was a major accomplishment and they agreed that this would definitely become a routine thing. Henry saw the Ship the next morning and was ecstatic. He loved to play with it and was sure to be careful around it. From then on, Jemily would have a monthly build LEGO set. On date nights they would piece together everything and fall deeper in love with their wife. Their creations sat proudly displayed around the house and neither woman hesitated to mention them when asked. Eventually Henry began to join occasionally. Their second kid, Micheal, loved building even more and so the women let him join them too. It began one of their token family things. On its foundation, they strengthened and built deeper relationships and love with each other. 

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Ok, so jemily, who hates and who loves pickles?

OKAY I LOVE THIS AND FIRST AND FOREMOST PICKLES ARE AMAZING. :) on we gooooo.

JEMILY THOUGHTS PT. 16

Pickles are amazing and Jennifer Jareau happens to know that. She grew up in a small town in Pennsylvania, so the food was less than varietous. To combat the seeming monotony of their menus, JJ and Roslyn used to have weird food-offs. The weirder the item, the more the points. It was in those moments that the pickle became one of JJ’s best friends. Its sharp, tart taste was not suitable for everyone’s pallet. The vegetable’s crunchiness was welcomed in burgers but also often shunned when without anything else. She was dared to eat 5 plain once as part of Roslyn’s dare and there she fell in love with it. The pickle became her stress food, always helping bring her back to reality when everything seemed to swamp over her. She could honestly answer that it was a snack that got her through many late night studying sessions. Emily was quite the opposite. Despite her well-traveled and distinguished pallet, Emily couldn't fathom why anybody would like to eat pickles. She had an affection for pickled items, but that was it. (JJ had clowned on her for liking pickled eggs, but Emily would never let that eating habit see the light of day.) The first time she saw JJ eat a raw pickle was when she had come over to finish some files at JJ’s office late at night. She stepped in and noticed JJ munching on something, not yet having a proper angle to see what it was. When she realized that JJ was eating a pickle, her eyes widened in shock. She gasped in horror, throwing JJ off guard. JJ eventually realized that Emily was in shock over the pickle and started laughing. Emily thought it wasn’t funny and that JJ was a lunatic. JJ just laughed harder. She explained that it was comfort food, born out of childhood curiosity. Emily presented her animated disgust, presenting the idea that it was absurd how anyone enjoyed the taste of vegetabled sour, with its texture alone being hideous. That was more than amusing for JJ. To this day, whenever JJ eats a pickle Emily’s face can’t help but scrunch in distaste. She had gotten better at not avoiding it, but the matter was still hilarious to JJ and the rest of the BAU.

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what if... i brought... jemily thoughts... back... yall want that...?

(if you do, send me asks for what you want me to write a jemily thought on :))

[if you haven't seen those, parts 1-17 are linked in my masterpost]