#jessisms

[littlesistersammy]

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                             @ruledroostGetting to know you Questions for the Mun! 

🎥- Favorite movie?

Favorite movie??? hmm... I would have to say... at the moment... fifth element or... The Lord of the Rings Trilogy....

❤️- How would you describe yourself?

Um..... Bubbly motormouth with mad cosplay skills???

[littlesistersammy]

My thing is, if I like talking to you and we get along pretty well, I call you friend. If that screws things up and you tell me so, I will be sad that we aren't, but ultimately I will respect that and hope you will still talk to me anyway.

[agrarian-revolt]

truisms (cw self harm)

i think about hurting myself constantly

the only time i didn’t  ideate about suicide was July 2014-early November 2014.

i had to cut my hair short partly because my trich came back

i don’t know how to have relationships with other people, even platonic friendships

i feel increasingly alone and unlikable

i started eating “normally” but every time i don’t eat something “safe” or work out “well enough”, it takes an effort not to start bawling

i’m going to end up alone

[agrarian-revolt]

i am spiraling out of control by doing more than i need to do

[agrarian-revolt]

here’s the thing though:

i read my horoscope and it ruined everything.

here’s the thing though:

should have been petty and neurodivergent (though both are inconclusive) in a space like this. shouldn’t have done what i did.  I was wrong to be cryptic on twitter.

here’s the thing though:

i’ve probably ruined everything because you don’t want what I do and I can’t tell what’s going on and I’m so confused and I’m going down the path I always do because when do I not? I want to stop making the same mistakes I always do. I don’t want this to be a mistake. I fear I have already made it one. I am so scared I’m going to let this hurt me. I’m going to create pathways that will guide you toward hurting me.  I can’t have that again.

[agrarian-revolt]

i fucking overreacted over nothing and probably ruined everything: an autoethnography

[agrarian-revolt]

so i’ve been battling (yet another) yeast infection

and basically i am a perfect candidate:

-i drink

-i’m more stressed than I’d ever want to be

-i sleep awfully

-I love wearing thongs

-and I’m stressed 24/7

so idk fam

[agrarian-revolt]

you will be enough for someone. maybe that person is only yourself, but you will be enough.