Bits and Pieces || What you need to know
Or maybe you don't need to know. You can do whatever you want with this information but I suppose I just want to get it off my chest.
There are some things you may know about me.
I am G-Dragon.
A leader, rapper, singer, sometimes model.
An artist.
Human.
Fallen.
Well, as human as I can get. As a few of you may know, I'm a fallen angel. If you didn't well now you do. Though, since December I'm sure there is something more to me than just this fallen angel business.
Something much more darker dwells within and I've been feeling it grow each and every day since then. With the characteristics that I've been showing, they seem more demonic than anything, though I don't understand why that would be.
I'm not a demon.
But this isn't the reason I'm here. Some are aware of my relationship with Youngbae. He is indeed my boyfriend, the one that I do truly care about the most. But before him, I was with someone else.
I was someone else.
I suppose to get a better understanding of who I am and why I am the way that I am, maybe this is significant to know.
I was married to Choi Seunghyun. For a while, I honestly believed he was the one. The only one I'd ever need.
I was wrong.
Everything was rushed, ill planned and just wasn't right. I didn't mind it at first, I liked (still do) broken things, broken people. I find them fascinating. But I thought it would change, I thought I could put this broken person back together.
I only ended up cutting myself.
Seunghyun and I even went as far as having a child...a child that I did in fact did not want. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a terrible human being or anything, I simply was not ready for this and yet it was forced upon me...like most of the relationship.
There were too many issues with Seunghyun, too many problems and he still hadn't resolved them, even after everything, he was still the same broken mess that was slowly sucking the life from me.
I hurt him in the end but I do want to make it clear that he hurt me throughout the whole entire relationship.
I am not a bad person.
As I knew he would, he made it seem like I was the one that broke everything. That I let things fall apart when it was him all along.
I would also like to say that the baby became my world instantly, my little baby Taehyun.
He became my everything.
He still is my everything.
This is all I really wanted to say, to pour out because this is somewhat significant. Maybe you know who the old me was, maybe ran across me.
Maybe you know of the Choi Seunghyun I speak of...doesn't matter now though. I do believe he has no memory of who I am nor who his child is.
Maybe it's better that way..
