#ji:personal

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어쩌나! vibes

if you’re reading this you now have to post your own 어쩌나! vibes picture sorry i don’t make the rules seventeen does 🌻💛

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the occasional post of me dancing. I’m super super rusty! I haven’t touched this style of dancing in ages + I’m sorely out of shape but here we are anyways

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colombia won, svt held a bomb ass concert 🤟🏽 today is a good day y’all ✨👌🏽

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compoxing ⇢ jiflat

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hey i know i’ve gone ghost but nothing’s really changed. my bias is still handsome and i’m still a potato 🤷🏻‍♀️ thanks to the lovely @kwoncoups for tagging me! i tag @softwonwoo @cheolmates @cheoliday @dinoshaur @ccarats and whoever else would like to join! i’d love to see your lovely faces!

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uh. i guess this will explain my lack of activity after being so active. it’s also probably really triggering and sad and i’m not really looking for attention or anything. please don’t feel sorry, i think everyone goes through hard times and this is mine. this is just one of the few places i can say what’s on my mind so forgive me as i scream out into the void. tl;dr: life is hard so i’m always hoping everyone else is having a better time.

so i’m finishing college soon. and this is the scariest thing for me. i’ve had a lot of almost-there times so to be here is scary.

i feel like i’ve been dotting all my t’s and crossing all my i’s and i’m terrified.

i’m looking for jobs in my field but i’ve had no luck. and i’m scared because this isn’t what i want to do. it’s never been and now i feel like...this is just something i’ll do to get by in life. as usual, it’s what everyone expects of me. i’m scared because in a week and a few days i’ll be 23 and i’ve accomplished...nothing. at least, nothing i feel i could really be proud of.

my mental health has been slowly collapsing. i don’t think i see a lot of importance in my life right now. it feels like i’m going through the motions and scrambling a lot for nothing. my heart feels heavy and i’m anxious all the time. i want to cry all the time. i don’t recall being this hopeless since i was 17. 

i wish i could end this on a good note, but i can’t. i’m scared of life right now, and i feel pretty lost. it feels like i’ve wasted a lot of time.

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Shuffle your k-pop playlist 10 times and write down what songs play! Then send this to 5 mutuals and have them do the same!

ooOOO thanks for sending me this bb! okay here we go:

get it by pristin vrhythm ta remix (rock version) by ikondope by btsanthem by ikonblack dress by clcpeek-a-boo by red velvethero by monsta xbaepsae by btsairplane by ikon724148 by agust d