Jihyo x M Reader- “Catching Feelings”
I'M BACK!
Before I start, I wanna greet a Happy 26th Birthday first to our very own Park Jihyo, the goddess main vocalist, dancer and leader of TWICE!
Now before y'all explore this story that will kick-off Set 5, I just want to say that I never wanted or intended to mix this one with a smut, but I had to because I'm trying to explore other new things to input in my works.
That WAS my very first rule before I started this book but I guess I finally broke it.
So... since y'all know that this has a smut, I want also to remind everyone that this is my first time writing one so please try to understand me readers if I suck narrating it just like how I suck at writing a story.
Now, yeah... again let's start Set 5 shall we?
WARNING: includes mature content, smut, R+18
You woke up in the middle of 6AM in the early morning. Blinking your eyes rapidly as you recover your vision, you groaned with the soothing stretch of your newly awakened body.
Looking at the curtain covered window of your bedroom with your squinted eyes, you saw that the sun hasn't shine very bright yet, making you realize that you indeed woke up very early.
You checked the time in your cellphone before turning it off immediately due to your eyes can't endure the radiation coming from the bright screen of your device.
Placing it on the nightstand beside your bed, you stirred your body to the other side; whereas your sight stayed there for a minute.
A naked body of the woman was still sleeping peacefully. Her front compressed into yours, arm placed atop of your chest which squeezes her voluptous free breasts together.
But ofcourse, the very first thing that you admire the most at this woman beside you that effectively steals your glance whenever you look at her is the gorgeous face of your friend named Jihyo.
You may be asking to yourself, "wait wait, what did you just mentioned at the very last words?"
Yeah. the f- word. Yes, I did say that.
Friends.
Now you're shocked, I see.
But first, before I help the scenario to explain so that you can understand, let's watch them first as I nearly began to make you understand.
As your gaze descended to her nude body cuddling you sweetly, you discovered also that you were sharing the same lack of clothing as her right now. Both naked bodies wrapped in a thick white blanket.
It made you also remember what led to both of you looking like this in your queen-sized bed.
Here we go.
Last night, you just finishing washing the plate you used to eat the last remaining slice of cake from your birthday when you heard a streak of knocks on your door.
You peeked at the peephole, seeing Jihyo standing in front of your door. She was wearing her uniform from work which tells you that she just arrived home at this night hour.
Opening the door, she looked at you at you did the same as you greeted her.
"Hey, Ji. Why are you here?"
She did not respond. Instead, she maintained her unamused demeanor as she looked at you. Not interested to talk about it, so she walked inside while shoving you in through your chest. You were astonished when Jihyo lunges on you in a forceful kiss after you kicked the door shut. A chorus of her whimpers is being played as she pulls your head towards her, brushing her plump lips into yours and the rhythm of your wet tongues colliding. "Ji, what the-," you said after she let go. "I'm so exhausted right now...", she harshly pushed you again, this time with enough power to send you crashing back to the plush sofa behind you. You sat after landing on the cushions as a result of her push. What follows is Jihyo unbuttoning her blouse and throwing it away, showing her massive delicious breasts barely concealed by her white laced bra. You gulped as you felt hot from Jihyo's sudden increase in wildness, now that one of her most alluring parts of her body is entirely exposed exclusively for you. "I've been thinking about this before the last hour ran out so that the shift could end and I could leave...", she said as she grasped the waistband of your underwear and jersey shorts and dragged it down on your ankles, displaying your semi-erected cock extremely close to her face. "All I want to do is rest... with this..." She gripped your cock and massaged the tip at a dangerously slow pace, causing it to harden and enlarge as she felt the pulsate in her warm hands. You moaned as Jihyo began to stroke your cock at a slow pace. "... so please let me unwind by pleasuring you, daddy," Jihyo begged as she pressed her cheek on the length of your cock, accidentally making a cute face as your throbbing wood was there beside, successfully turning you on even more. You can only nod as you are rendered speechless by Jihyo's activation of the kink she prefers to have with you ever since you two began to engage in sexual activities on that night when you were both drunk. And that's when your friendship with Jihyo evolved into friends with benefits, with the lone rule she said that the two of you agreed on ensuring that you both remember it every time you two will do this.
"No romantic feelings involved okay? Just us doing sex, temptations and nothing more. Deal?", it rang onto your mind very detailed.
Jihyo was now sucking your length, even mixing it with a few of licks and slurps, never leaving any portion of your cock tainted with her saliva and your pre-cum. Not to mention that her tempo had increased and she was now aggressively bobbing her head up and down, gliding her mouth and tongue down your entire length, even attempting a deepthroat. "Have I told you before how much I love your cock, daddy~?", she seducively asked you as she paused before proceeding to involve your full balls as she played it on top of her palm. All you could do was groan and grunt, especially as you were towards the end of your endurance, causing the volume to rise.
Jihyo easily noticed it so she hurried her sloppy sucking more on your helpless pulsating cock.
"Aghhh Jihyo... I-I'm cumming... I'm cumming!"
With the final roar, you burst out a huge load of white cream inside her mouth which she just basically chugged it like she was just drinking a milk.
She lets out a refreshed sigh and showed you her empty mouth, proof that no signs of your thick semen left on her.
"You can still give me some more, right Daddy? I don't feel relaxed yet.", she said in a sultry tone.
"Don't worry, Jihyo. Daddy's still has a lot of energy left in him, and Daddy's is willing to share some for being such a nice girl.", you said, joining the flow of the kink. You stood up as you grabbed Jihyo's head as she also rose up along with you.
"But, shall we transfer to the bedroom to get ourselves cozy?", Jihyo agreed before you catched her as she crashed her body, wrapping her legs and arms around her waist and neck as the two of you shared another passionate kiss.
Dropping her to your bed, you quickly stripped off your shirt as well as the remaining fabrics still attached to her.
Aligning your cock in her pussy, you slowly inserted it inside and slowly thrusted on her as each bodies rocked in a missionary position.
You indulged on her jiggling huge mounds, sucking and flicking the hardended nipples with your tongue, adding another shock of pleasure within her as she moaned louder.
You massaged each orbs, giving and treating them equally by tasting each, even burying your face in the middle of her cleavage, comfortably feeling the softness of her breasts pressed on your cheeks.
"Oh yes... ugh... I know you love my tits daddy, mmh squeeze them harder please..."
You are very happy to oblige.
You followed what she said before locking again her mouth by kissing her. She trapped your head once again and even with her legs as she compressed her body even more to yours as you kept on fucking her.
She informed you that she was near to reach to orgasm so you pounded roughly onto her loving hole, thus creating a squeaking sound on the bed.
"Daddy... oh oh I-I'm cumming... mmh I'M CUMMINGGG!!!"
She lets out a loud moan as she sprayed a waterfall of her juices around your cock that is still inside her and also staining the bedsheet with the extra residue escaped.
You still haven't cum yet so you maintained the intense hammering onto her tight little cunt as you can also feel that you are on the verge of meeting the end too.
"You're on a birth control right?"
"Yes, you can fill me up Daddy I need it so bad..."
Three last strong strokes and you did it, splashing a second load of your thick white creamy liquid inside her.
Both of you let out a huge exhausted breaths before Jihyo kissed you again. Refilling the energy again, Jihyo pushed you aside and sat at the top of your thighs where she helped you ride out your orgasm.
"It's working, Daddy. I'm getting energized again. But... please, let me do the work next so I can prove it to you.", she said before she squatted and rubbed the tip of her cock to her clit before bringing her body down to insert your hard cock inside her.
You felt her walls clenched on you.
"Oh Jihyo... you're so damn tight!"
"You're so fucking big and thick daddy, I still can't believe I can have it all... you're stretching me so wide!"
And after that you two engaged into another intimate duel where she rode you in a cowboy position before engaging to a few more around your bedroom, name it being spooning, dogstyle, 69 etc.
Now very spent, you two decided to lay down together on your bed to finally have a legit rest, too exhuasted that both even forgot that neither of you haven't taken a dinner yet.
And that's what happened.
You felt Jihyo swirled her body slightly as she slowly woke up afterwards, groaning at the comfortable spot she's in. She looked at you and smiled.
"Good morning, Ji."
"Morning too, Y/NN", she greeted back. "It's still early yet right?"
"Yeah, can't believe we're already recharged after what we did last night.", you hilariously said.
"Don't feel so though. Why, do you?"
"Nah. I still feel drained also.", she nodded.
"I'm sorry for randomly visiting you in the middle of the night by the way. Perhaps you were busy or doing something important that maybe I unintentionally interrupted?"
"There's no problem, Ji. I wasn't even doing anything that can make me busy last night. I just finished eating my cake before you barged in."
"You sure?"
"I am, promise.", she pouted and lowered her head more, frown deepened as you recognized that she was still rather feeling sad about it.
"Ji, I swear you didn't made me think of you as if I want you to get out of house because I want to be alone, cmon now.", you pulled her head closer beside your chest as you combed her strands of hair gently. "Don't be sad, okay."
"I'm sorry with the mood swings, maybe the stress of having enormous amount of workloads in my office affects me still.", she sighed.
"It's fine, atleast you shared it now atleast that you have a reason.", you tried to cheer her up.
"Do you sincerely forgive me, YN?"
"I swear."
"I don't think you meant it."
"Eh? What's more do you want me to do, Ji?", you confusingly asked her.
"What I want?"
She unraveled her naked body by taking off the blanket covering her body. Her hands travelled down beneath your torso where she reached for your unerected cock and gave it some squeeze. To help it become hard again, she took your hand and guided it in her big tits where you began caressed and mashed it.
"This might be enough to make me fully convinced that I'm a nice girl for you again, daddy~", she bit her lips as she heard you let out a turned on whimper at how relaxing her touch feels on your now re erected cock again.
"Fine. Now turn yourself around and let daddy taste you. After this, we definitely need to have shower and breakfast because we haven't even got to ate dinner last night. I'm hungry", she chuckled at your statement.
"Alright, let's make it quick then. I'm starving too.", she replied, breaking off her "daddy's girl" role for a second.
THE NEXT DAY
You just returned from the house of your cousin who landed from his plane that brought him back to South Korea from Los Angeles after finishing his contract there abroad as a lab researcher.
The stay went on for 3 hours as both catched up immediately through times passed where each of you never had each other very near to spend it all as bestfriends. Before you left, he gave you a bar of Toblerone chocolate as his gift, one for you and one for Jihyo.
Remembering that you'll be able to pass through the road where Jihyo's beauty parlor is located, you decided to pay her a visit instead and invite her to come with you for a dinner.
Parking the car at the sidewalk, you were about to enter the parlor by opening the glass door when you saw something that made you halt.
Jihyo was talking to some other guy, sitting very close to each other and seemingly enjoying their conversation together, as you can see how Jihyo's face crumpling and her mouth widening from her laughter along with the guy.
You mindlessly became even more serious and transformed into very curious based from what you're seeing.
It had you invested to know who is this mystery guy.
But you shook all the thought away as you concluded it was just her co-worker anyways as you noticed that his outfit may be different to Jihyo but for sure it still belongs to their workplace as uniform.
So you just portrayed it as a simple close manager-employee connection.
You furrowed your eyebrows in perturbed at your own self as to why you were even thinking this very seriously.
It was just Jihyo's friend, you assured yourself. Why are you even calming yourself down, you asked confsedly to yourself.
Huffing some air, you grabbed the handle of the door and entered the parlor where your entrance garnered many attention from the people inside, including Jihyo who stopped her talking along with the guy.
"YN?"
"Yo."
"Hey... w-what are you doing here?", she astoundedly asked you as she slowly stood up from her seat and walked towards you.
"Paying a visit. Well, I was from Namjoon's house to see him since he just arrived here earlier from LA."
"Wait, Namjoon oppa's back?!"
"Yup, for vacation. He said he wants to meet you also so... settled on day off?"
"It's on.", she accepted.
"So yeah... since I'm about to drive through this address anyway on the way back to my home so might as well do the same also... to see you.", you explained. "Dinner's on me, samgyup?"
"Oh my God yes please, I'm craving."
"Then samgyup it is."
"You're gonna wait here? My shift's about to be over in less than half an hour now anyways."
"Yeah... I could use some... haircut anyway to make me less bored.", Jihyo understood. She guided you to one of the vacant seats and being the special customer, she offered you her own service by doing your haircut by herself.
Nearly less than 5minutes remaining before her shift ends, Jihyo wrapped up your haircut as she take off the barber cloth on you, untangling it from behind your neck.
You checked yourself on the mirror with your fresh faded style haircut and to be honest, you were definitely impressed by Jihyo's skills.
"Wow, Ji. It looks so good.", you said as you tilted your head nack and forth to take a peek at the sides.
"You look even more handsome tonight, YN.", she said. Without noticing it, you didn't know that you blushed at her compliment especially when you glanced at her reflection on the mirror, smiling brightly while looking also at your fresh new look; signifying that her comment was very true.
"A-ah thanks.", you giggled. "Cmon, I can help you guys clean the place before we go.", she tried to insist but you pleaded for her to let you which she had no choice but to allow.
You arrived with her at the samgyupsal resto where you and her didn't waste any more time to enjoy the food and became delighted at each other's happy talks and yummy servings of food scattered around your table.
After having dinner with Jihyo, she requested to try the newly built parking lot theatre just beside the apartment standing few establishments away from the resto.
You learned that this theatre is only limited for 3 days for everyone who can manage to get a spot in the parking lot. It was actually a promo in return from the celebration of the apartment's 30th anniversary.
Fortunately, you spotted a slot available on the 3rd row just for you to park the car and prepare yourselves for the upcoming movie to be showed. In coincidence, it was Jihyo's favorite movie that was presented next. You watched it together where both of you laughed and cried at the mood of some scenes.
Now driving on your way back to your safe haven, you didn't noticed that Jihyo was already fell asleep after she became silent as she was summarizing to you what just happened to the movie you two just watched.
Opening your garage, you parked your car there and exited to carefully reach Jihyo and carry her in a bridal style as you don't want to disrespectfully disturb her sleep.
You led her to your bedroom where you nicely laid her there and fix her sleeping posture along with her pillow and the blanket to make herself more comfortable.
You just watched Jihyo undoubtedly muttering to yourself how she does look very beautiful and adorable when she's on her peaceful state.
You two are bestfriends for so long and yes you had slept with her on your several overnights together with her from young up until to these days where your relationship with her has somewhat changed now and less innocent compared from before.
You had the chance to witness her resting figure throughout the years but you don't know why only at these time you got so invested and drawed on her charming features.
It's like... unlike your normal friendship with her where you want to just spend your time with her... it evolved to the point where you don't want her to leave your sight at all also.
You clarified to yourself that it doesn't mean anything at all and it just normal to praise her beauty.
You can't break the rule. It reminded you.
"Yeppeuda.", you whispered and smiled timidly.
You patted her head and was about to head back on your living room to sleep on the couch for the night when it struck you with shock as you felt Jihyo's hand holding your wrist.
"J-Jihyo?!", you panickedly called her name.
"Where are you going?", she asked you while her eyes are half litted.
"Uhh at the c-couch. I'm going to sleep there."
"Why not here?"
"Huh?"
"Pabo, are you embarassed to sleep beside me? You're acting as if we never shared the same bed together, might include also our heated moments.", she teased you. You got embarassed hearing that.
"I-it's not that... I just want to give you privacy for t-tonight.", you reasoned.
"No. Sleep with me."
"Jihyo..."
"Please~~~", her tone became cuter which was impossible for your soft spot in your heart to resist.
"Aish, fine you baby.", Jihyo giggled and swept aside to give you some space. You laid beside her and switched the lights off.
"Goodnight, Y/NN."
"Goodnight, Ji."
You faced to the opposite direction, your face facing Jihyo's own.
You closed your eyes and sighed heavily as you tried to shut down your body to sleep although the weird uncomfortable sensation is distracting you.
It became even more useless when you suddenly felt her body wrapped onto yours, her small arms arms looped around your waist and her face buried in your back.
"Hehe... thanks for being my cuddle buddy.", she said before dozing off to sleep. You blushed harder as you heard her say it softly. Before you finally slept also, you glanced at her tender hands attached to your body.
3 DAYS LATER
"YN you there?", Jihyo shouted from inside the dressing area. She checked if you were still there waiting from outside while she's trying all the outfits caught her interest to be worth buying with. This is the third time she's about to change again into another outfit since the first two didn't satisfy you as you thought those two doesn't suit her. "Still here.", you said, although not going lie to yourself that the free sample of that men's cologne section right in front of you from the distance is irking your curiosity to check it by yourself which however, would cost your guard from Jihyo so you rather remained on monitoring.
"I'm done, what about this?", she opened the door and revealed herself again to you for the 3rd time.
You scanned her from head to tone and good heavens, you probably found already the perfect dress for her. Your eyes widened and jaw dropped at how it perfectly fits her.
She looks so immaculate and breathtaking to look at. Her spin as she twirls the hem of her dress and her short black hair to the air felt like she was moving slow-mo and all you have to do is to get mesmerized at her beauty as your heart beat intensifies and senses blackened like the usual admirer would feel whenever he/she sees his/her crush looking so dashing.
Admirer, yes. Your feelings for her grew for the past days and all of the signs threw you to the reality that you are indeed having a crush now on your bestfriend Jihyo when you decided to ask this concern with the help from your cousin Namjoon as you facetimed him last night.
You told him the entire story from what made you develop this strange feelings that only appears whenever she's around or when she's near at you, specifically the night where you visited her at the parlor and saw her conversing with her male co-worker which both seemed to be very happy having their time alone together.
Namjoon also guessed that the reason why you suddenly grown a loving romantic fond towards Jihyo is the fact that both of you were currently still single and never had any relationship from somebody else before. And also that you and her were frequently close to one another most of the time (not to mention, your intimacy moments with her ever since the friends with benefits rule was installed after you and Jihyo accidentally had sex without each other's right consciousness due to alcohol), that might've led you to feel different when you see Jihyo almost expressing same level of emotions she's having to you on other guy.
It made you wonder when Namjoon inserted the question if there's a possibility that Jihyo could be feeling the same thing since she only had you as the guy whom she's very close with but you believe that it must've shrunk now that you have another contender to win her heart.
In addition, your cousin asked you on when do you plan to confess your feelings, you only answered if there's the time you finally mustered up the courage to tell her. Namjoon then cautioned to him that he must kept an eye on Jihyo to make himself aware if he ain't too late yet.
After your conversation with Namjoon ended, you got sad as you can't even tell him properly that confessing to Jihyo won't be that easy because of your "benefits" thingie going on between you and her. Ofcourse it would be super cringey and embarassing if you will just randomly gonna share to others that you're fucking your longtime bestfriend without any glimpse of deep admiration within one another.
You shrugged it off your mind as you remembered what happened last night to avoid ruining your mood and your funtime with Jihyo. Focusing back, you were able to comment just as when she was about to woke your senses back up.
"That's fantastic. Jihyo that one's my pick.", you said, pointing at the red dress she's wearing.
"Really?", you nodded in confirmation.
"I mean... I have to agree with you. I'm also loving the design and style of this brand.", Jihyo said as she looked around below on her red dress. "Okay, it's settled. I'll wear this for tomorrow.", she grinned.
"Tomorrow? What do you in tomorrow?"
"Oh it's our boss' birthday. She and her husband invited us on her house to join them celebrate and we all accepted. Part of showing our gratitude for her kind treatment to us her employees, her invitation and respect if I may include.", she replied.
"Also...", Jihyo became flushed at the thought inside her head. You looked at her as you waited for her follow up.
"I wanted to showoff on Daniel when he meets me tomorrow.", she looked away, flustered from her prepared plan.
"So you b-brought me here t-to help you decide what clothes you're gonna wear to... i-impress him?", you nearly cracked your voice at the last words as the abnormal shots of your heart makes you wince painfully at how it hurts knowing the reason why she dragged you along with her in the first place.
You thought this day will only surround with you and her only.
Not including anyone...
Not even that guy... Daniel.
No one.
You may be sounding possessive but yeah... love can definitely turn you selfish.
What's even the point of disregarding that thought you were thinking earlier about your talk with Namjoon just to prevent your mood shift and destroying your day with her when she's literally the one instead who did the move?
You didn't want to hurt yourself about her but instead it all flipped backwards, she's the one who did it by herself to hurt you about... the reality of what she should be for you.
"Yup. You're a life-saver, YN.", she smiled sweetly at you and clasped her hands in gratitude. Hearing thank yous makes you happy that atleast it tells you that you are helpful but this one's an exception.
"If only you know how much I struggled thinking of what should I wear because I'm panicking that he might not notice how much I prepared also for him.", she sighed. "But I'll try this and still continue with my goal tomorrow, thanks to you YN.", she hugged the new red dress she finally preferred.
"Welcome.", you fakely smiled.
"Cmon, let's pay now to the cashier.", she walk away ahead from you who stood still at your position, stunned at the devastation you're feeling to hear that she's very motivated to chase for him.
Maybe it doesn't matter anymore either you do it or not, you won't win in result of both options anyways, you thought.
THE NEXT DAY
You were currently playing a song from your playlist while playing a guitar when you heard some knocking sounds coming from the person outside your front door.
Furrowing your eyebrows in curiousity, you peeked at the peephole to see who might that be and in your complete bewilderment, you didn't expect this person to be standing in your territory one day.
You opened the door to see the figure of this familiar man in your eyes who has the same height as yours, but what caught your attention more is Jihyo who looks very out of herself, clutching one of her arm around him who seems to be doing his best to support the drunk woman in her stance.
"U-uh... hello. Are you perhaps, YN?", he asked politely.
"I am. How did you know my name and... what happened to this one?", you asked back not leaving your stare at him as you pointed Jihyo who is mumbling nonsensical words and even being touchy and clingu at Daniel who seems uncomfortable at her unstable state.
"You're so cuteee Daniel mmmm~~", Jihyo blabbered while squishing Daniel's biceps. You began fuming in anger due to the jealousy you're getting from Jihyo's clingy actions.
"Jihyo has been saying your name over and over then I asked her who are you. She answered me simply as "bestfriend". Then I remembered that she once mentioned to me about you that you live in front of her house so I followed her address on the phone.", he summarized. " Oh and also... she drinked too many glasses of vodka. We tried to stop her but she didn't listen."
"My name is Daniel by the way.", he introduced himself before he passed Jihyo to you carefully. "I have to go now."
"Thanks.", you simply replied in a serious tone. Daniel just nodded before heading back on his car.
You and Jihyo entered your house and closed the door. You guided Jihyo who is laughing without in her normal conscience towards the bedroom.
You peruaded Jihyo to lay down on your bed but she fought back and instead pulled you closer to her as she tried to engage with you on a sloppy kiss.
"Daddy please punish your babygirl, I had fun without you... I am such a bad girl for daddy~", she pleaded as you struggled to get rid of yourself away from her grasp.
"No, Jihyo. Stop. No sex for tonight, you have to rest, You're drunk."
Being more well-built and stronger that her, you escaped her hold as you saw her pout where you speared yourself away from her. She began rolling and switching every angle in the bed as she groaned when she felt the comfy texture of it.
You saw her tried to catch you again by lifting herself up off the bed only to fail when her drunk state won over. "C-come here... daddy, I need you-", she hiccuped between her words before she slowly succumbed to sleep.
You sighed and shook your head at how problematic Jihyo is being for you tonight. You helped to fix her sleeping posture to a comfortable one before you left the bedroom and sat silently rewinding the issue you're having with Jihyo regarding of you having a crush with her.
"Will still do anything for you, Jihyo... even if I lost, aren't I?", you mumbled to yourself before lowering your body down on the couch and stared at the ceiling during your reprocessing of thoughts.
1 WEEK LATER
Jihyo and Daniel were talking about that rude customer that they encountered earlier and spoke out their opinions and perspective about what happened. It stopped when both her and Daniel exited the parlor.
"I gotta go now Jihyo, I still have to take a visit first on my girlfriend before I go home."
Jihyo halted in her steps. Her wide smile she was encasing suddenly vanished when she heard of something she was wishing that she could've just misintepreted it or something.
"W-what?"
"I said, I gotta go now because my girlfriend told me she'll be waiting for me when the parlor closed.", Daniel laughed. He noticed that Jihyo was still staring seriously at him which he felt awkward looking back at her big rounded eyes.
"G-girlfriend?"
"Yeah girlf- wait, haven't I shared you about this earlier?", Daniel paused as he tred to remember if he did. "Ohhhh wait, I didn't! Now I understand why you got shocked. I thought you just didn't heard me well or something", he said. Jihyo remained silent.
"Sorry for not enlightening about it. Yes, Jihyo...
I do have a girlfriend now. Guess what, she answered me back yesterday!", Daniel erupted in joy. However, Jihyo's heart just shattered into tiny pieces as Daniel sounded very happy that he's into with another girl rather than her.
"This is where I will leave you now, Ji. Be safe okay? Goodbye!", Daniel hurriedly departs from Jihyo who only returned the greet lamefully.
Now all alone, Jihyo feel like she's on the verge of crying out hard as her first heartbreak affected her too much from the failure of capturing her crush's feelings who is now taken with some other girl.
She tried to swipe away the drops of tears slowly dropping from her eyes. Instead of pure immense sadness, it was replaced by anger and disappointment all pointed directly at herself.
And she has an idea in mind already on how to make herself feel better atleast.
You opened the door when you heard a knock, presenting Jihyo who seemed to have such a bad day based from her colorless, blank, and pale expression within her face.
Emerging quick, she ran onto you and crashed herself for a rough kiss with you. You tried to seperated yourselves away from one another but Jihyo tried to continue gaining physical contact at you.
"Jihyo....
Jihyo... stop please
Ji-
JIHYO, ENOUGH!", you unintentionally pushed her away with force. Jihyo just looked at you unbelievably.
"Why, YN? What's stopping you? Huh? You want this, right?"
"Jihyo, please I don't want to do it tonight."
"And again that's the only thing that you've been keep on saying from these past few days. The same repetitive bullshit. No interest, mood, energy blah blah blah. What happened to us who were actively engage having sex before?", Jihyo frustratingly asked you.
"I- I just don't want to just randomly fuck whenever we want, Ji. I told you the reasons and I'm serious with it."
"You've been like this for more than a week now, YN. There has to be something else more than that. Tell me."
"Only those, Ji. Wait, what happened to you anyways why are you being so mad at me?"
"Daniel has his own girl now, and its not me.", Jihyo blurted out with jealousy. "My crush doesn't like me, and I don't know how to feel about that."
You got shocked at what she said. Eyes widened, mouth agaped at the woman who uncontrollably just let her tears flow in her cheeks.
"W-what? H-he....", you tried to speak up but no words were coming to help you build your response.
"And now i'm here who was planning to atleast have some fun with you because I needed you but you're still keeping that same excuse again for me.", Jihyo disappointingly remarked. I'm sorry I'm not buying it anymore, YN. So answer me, what's the real reason behind all of that, huh."
"I-I can't... I can't tell you.",
"Why? What is it, are you keeping a secret from me?", she furrowed her eyebrows and crossed her arms. "Is that why you are now changed, YN? Is that what i-"
"YES. IT'S BECAUSE OF THAT!", you didn't let her finish anymore as you finally erupted from the anger comsuming and filling your insides. "I CHANGED BECAUSE OF THAT ONE GODDAMN SECRET I'M KEEPING FROM YOU, AND THAT IS BY HOW I JUST PLACED MYSELF RIGHT NOW DEEPLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU!", you shouted at Jihyo who was astounded at your confession.
"H-huh? Y-you... that was a j-joke right YN?", Jihyo tried to be denial but that won't it gone easily on you.
You chuckled as tears began pouring down on your face. Jihyo observed that her attempt crossed out just from the look of your face now showcasing also what exactly she must've feeling too.
"Ofcourse it would be a joke to you. You never expected me to say it with all sincerity to you, one day am I right?", you said. Jihyo remained silent.
You sniffed out your tears. "It's not a joke. Jihyo I crossed the line twice where at this moment I'm standing right now in front of you to tell you that I'm not seeing or treating you anymore as just my friend... but as the woman that I truly love.
I didn't meant for any of this to occur within me but ever since I saw you being with Daniel just stopped me from making a fool out of myself. I may have been denying all these what ifs in my head but heart never changed its case, that it only wanted you to be for me.
Now I know why my feelings acts differently than how my mind works, they don't cooperate well because one of them aren't honest enough to itself.
Jihyo, seeing you near at him, hearing his name although there's no need to mention him sometimes, everything just pains me so bad. Most notably, about what you said to me back at the mall that you brought me there just because you want to impress Daniel made me feel like i'm being the bridge for the two of you even though I didn't want you to end up with him.
Y-you... I wanted you rather to be mine, Jihyo.
The rule was stopping me to say it to you directly Jihyo, but I don't give a damn about it anymore, Ji. I don't want to became part of any of this anymore. T-this is wrong.
I don't want us to be just friends with benefits,
I don't want to let myself being held up because of that stupid condition,
I don't want to just do nothing and pretend I'm fine seeing you developing feelings with someone else because...
I love you."
You said before you sighed deeply to compose yourself and ease down the tension also attacking you.
Jihyo on the other hand, became even more tongue tied at your speech. She watched you get rid of your tears all filled with despair and pain caused by her preference of choosing Daniel although she wasn't aware that he was seeing someone probably better than her.
She swallowed and cleared her throat for a second before she took the turn the speak.
"I'm sorry, YN.", your heart skipped when she pronounced these.
"But I only see you as friend.", she said scornfully at you. Meeting her eyes, she doesn't seemed impressed and delighted at your confession.
"We had that one rule. One rule, YN and you can't even be real to a single deal! I thought there's nothing will go on between us. We talked about it but what is this now, YN? Now you're telling me you're catching feelings for me.?", she scoffed.
"I'm so disappointed at you, YN.", she massaged her forehead with her thumb and index finger to relieve the stress ramming into her head irritatingly. "Too bad, I don't see you nothing more than just my friend who turned out that I can use as my fuck buddy or hook up or whatever the hell want you wanna call it just to satisfy my needs and pleasure me to the fullest. You are just a whore. We're alike.", she admitted. You frowned as it broke your heart hearing those harsh words come out of her mouth.
"And that, is being me loyal to our agreement which you can't do.", she pointed at you and grunted in annoyance.
"So that's what you only think of me...", you asked her but you didn't bother to look. Your fists and jaw clenched furiously as it tore you apart hearing what she said.
"Fine. Fuck everything. I must tell you I can't do that for you anymore, Jihyo. This isn't right. I'm done.", you walked at the door where Jihyo just perplexedly watched you.
"Where are you going?"
"That won't concern you, Ji. Leave me alone for a while, will you?", you stepped out of the house and went inside your car to activate the engine and drive away.
"YN! YN COME BACK HERE!", she shouted at the window and knocked furiously but ended up being ignored.
She watched your car disappear from the distance, leaving her all alone still boiling in bad blood at your argument together with her about that golden rule that has now been broken because of you.
"Aish, I'll just gonna talk to him tomorrow.", she irritatedly spat before entering at your house to sleep and guard your own property without your presence there.
TWO WEEKS LATER
It's been two weeks since you left Jihyo in your house to be alone just to process everything you and her argued about. You were hurt so bad at the part of what she can only treat is still stuck to your mind and is being repeated over and over again makes you want to end this.
That's what you are before to Jihyo but you sweared that it won't be anymore because you're officially enough. You can't just fuck her when you developed strong feelings for her and the sex doesn't mean only for cravings and lust for you now. It has to be used necessarily.
Everything you just want to revolve around you and her is love.
Sadly, Jihyo doesn't feel the same so it won't work that way.
So what can you do about it? You can't force her to like you back because you're aren't even her ideal guy.
Remember, she only sees you as a friend slash fuck partner.
But you don't want it especially having her near you so you were thinking of a way to just end it once and for all.
Luckily, you were given a solution from your cousin Namjoon whom you visited at that night where you walked out of Jihyo. Arriving there, you bursted out in a dam of tears as you sobbed harder around the arms of your cousin who comforted you.
You shared to him what happened, still discarding the sex truths and Namjoon attentively listened.
Namjoon only offered you this advice to help you in this tough situation.
"If that's what you can only give based from her then just... reverse the role, YN. Hear me out, she doesn't like you anyway dude and you can't do anything it.
I say, you need to be the one to look for a girl to gain interest this time and she's there all alone. Unlike you, she won't mind it anyway. Let her consume and reflect everything. Just use that time of searching to heal your heart after the damage she inflicted on you."
"Will I be able to do that?"
"She can, what about you? YN, again... she doesn't even like you so what's the resist? She doesn't deserve you man. Prove to her that you are a complete loss to her. Have her out of your sight from weeks and maybe... you could get move on already from her."
And you listened, taking mental note of it as you remind yourself everyday. What did you do then? You didn't went back home for 3 days because you know that Jihyo is still staying there.
You decided to not have a sight of her for days to avoid affecting you as you slowly recover. You tried to get her out if your head and heart as you began looking for other girls to look for an opportunity that didn't went successful on Jihyo.
Namjoon helped you so he took you with him once to a coffee shop where you got introduced to his barista friend. She does look cute and beautiful and her face looks very young as if her age doesn't describe her looks.
You made up your mind that you need to go home bow after 3 days of being away and Namjoon only gave you goodluck message.
Arriving on the house, Jihyo saw you from her window that you are standing there unlocking the door of your house. She sprinted outside and tried to ran while calling your name loudly but you just ignored her and gave her a loud shut of your door, leaving Jihyo frowning as she realized you may have been still upset about what she said to you.
And it went on day after day of you ignoring her and if not you'll instead act very cold whenever she begs you to talk with her. With your treatment over her she feels as if she was just a stranger only to you.
Her being alone and unwanted by her bestfriend made her effectively lonely, sad, disheartened and guilty... most importantly, angry at herself as she now realized that this is all her fault and it's her job to fix the mess she caused.
The intensity increased when one day while she was with her friend who is the daughter of her family's friend named Sejeong spending time outside, she was baffled at what she saw from a far.
It was you going out at the same coffee shop you and Namjoon went but this time, you had that barista girl on your side.
She kissed you on the cheek which left you dumbfounded before she returned inside.
That sight just smashed Jihyo's heart in a snap.
Her eyes dwelled up in tears and her rough breaths choking her up as her heart overloading with despair, Sejeong checks up on her and she immediately ran back to her friend's car where she bawled up in a sound of cries.
Sejeong came in to comfort her older sister-figure friend and asked her to tell everything that happened between you and her.
Jihyo began from that night where you and her argued (also excluding the sexual relationship) and only intepreted that she told you harsh response at your confession, making her rejection seemed so terrible to you.
These past few days of you now bringing that sudden complete change of personality only for her after what she've done admitted that she deserves it at all as a karma, but she doesn't want it to last longer as she only wants to bring you back to her, apologize and solve this problem.
Without you feels like her day won't be complete. She then expressed how important you are to her and how the uplifting emotions can only be given by you, now that it holds another special value to her when she learned you are in love throughly to her.
Sejeong analyzed it all until it came to the conclusion where she said it to Jihyo after understanding all the dots comnected leading to this one answer:
"Jihyo, you're in love with YN too don't you?"
"E-ehh?"
"Say it, Ji. Hearing everything you said, that was your heart you're using to express everything you feel whenever you're with him and how it hugely impacted you when he disappeared at your side, still bringing that grudge of what you did to him."
"Your heart was speaking the reason why does this bothers you so much, more than even enough to think of him only as your friend. Just say it, Jihyo unnie. You just realized that you're also in love with him after all this time.
Your mind is telling you no but the heart... the heart never lies as much as you want to twist what it says."
She opened her phone and looked at her wallpaper which she changed 2 days ago.
It consists of your picture she took when you visited Busan with her.
She was longing for you during at that time and she didn't even realized the exact reason why she did this.
Just like yours, she was from wanting to spend more time with you now evolved this time to her desire of not wanting you to leave out of her sight.
Thinking all of it clearly.
It does makes sense.
You are the only guy who makes her feel this way since before your childhood.
Yours was way different that Daniel.
Sejeong's explaination makes sense.
It all makes sense to her.
YN/LN
The name of the guy who made Jihyo fall in love with.
She... she truly does love you too.
"Oh my god.", she covered her mouth in shock. "I screwed up so bad, Sejeong-ie..."
Sejeong smiled at her poor friend who was now enlightened. "Go get him back, unnie. Make amends with YN oppa."
She hugged her friend who continued to bawl her tears more while having the image of your devastated state when she said that disrespectful words in her head.
Now... she was feeling pity too.
THE NEXT DAY
You were having a breakfast after cooking your food in the kitchen when you heard knocks coming from your door.
You went to see who that is, and it shock you to see Jihyo standing in front of your door with her somehow lame emotion.
You tried to ignore it as you were about to return back to your chair when you heard her muffled voice from behind.
"Y-Y/N... I know you're awake. Please... can we talk? I... It will be quick I promise. Please, let me in...", she begged as she continued to knock.
You closed your eyes to hold back but it completely weakened you as you began hearing blurred noises of what it sounds like she's... shredding tears.
You cursed under your breath and opened the door slowly to see Jihyo kneeling in front of you while wiping her eyes that are now wet from her tears.
"J-jihyo?! Psst, get up."
She looked at you and slowly stood up where you offered your free hand to assist her. "Y-YN?"
"Yeah. Now come in, I don't want you to be seen like this.", you said before she entered your house and you closed the door.
Jihyo immediately hugged you tightly as she sobbed even more. "Y/YN... Y/N I missed you..."
"Jihyo, hey... stop crying please it's too early in the morning for you to be like this."
"I-I'm sorry, YN.", she spoke the words you've been somehow wanting to heat directly from her. It made you speechless as you continued to hear it all from her. "I'm sorry f-for saying that things to you. I didn't meant it I s-swear...
I just got brought on to the frustration I'm feeling at that day... I've been wanting to talk with you properly after that happened but y-you... you're avoiding me.", she stuttered as her sniffs were making her pause between her words.
You returned the hug back and gently caressed her back to calm her down. "Go on, Ji. Proceed. I'm listening."
"That night made me realize everything t-that... without you, I feel nothing... I feel lost and unmotivated to do everything all day... you're t-the one who provides me what I need.
Aside from the lust we're craving, what's more important to me is that... I-I really can't have you o-out of my sight. I want to be with you every single day. I can't lose you, YN.
I regretted everything that I said to you, YN, because it was all f-false...
YN... I'm in love with you too."
Your heart skipped beats in pattern aligned with you complete wave of shock cursed in your veins as you heard that words you didn't expected anymore to have her speak it out wholeheartedly of you.
"J-Jihyo?", you reacted. She looked to you and slowly seperates her away from you as she stood there while having her head lowered in shyness and fingers tangling with each other as she felt nervous and scared telling this to you.
"But I m-maybe too late now. Now after I s-saw you with another girl y-yesterday, that kiss on your cheek must've felt so good to you now, isn't it?", your eyes widely opened when she mentioned that moment where you visited that coffee shop and saw that lovely barista lady.
"Y-you saw it?"
"I did. I was with my friend at that time buying from other store."
"..."
"So yeah... I guess I can't have you now. I can't get the same thing you've been wanting to receive from me when you spilled all of your feelings to me. It's all karma, I get it. And it's rightful for me to receive it all for being the one to be blamed.
I deeply apologized for w-what I've done, YN. If I can't make you love me back, can you just atleast... forgive me instead?", she teared up again as she looked at you.
You watched her vulnerable state all visible to you and it hurts seeing her being like this.
You took the turn to speak as you stepped forward, your figure now inches away from her.
"I forgive you, Ji.", you admitted.
Jihyo was felt relieved by it.
"I know I deserve also to send my apology for giving you a stranger treatment, ignoring and acting cold towards you whenever you try to approach me just so you can solve the problem that has been going on between us. I became too selfish, only minding what I felt but I didn't let myself get affected when I could notice the regret of you for doing that.
I can't be mad at you at all, Jihyo. You're too hard to resist anyway. I just felt it more from the words I unexpectedly would hear from you.
But what's done is done and now telling me that you don't mean it at all will put my mind to rest from overthinking.
And about that what you saw yesterday..."
Jihyo frowned her lips more.
"I... I do am meeting other girl while I'm away from you..."
Jihyo choked up as she's about to cry again at your confirmation.
Only to sunk down when she heard the next thing you said.
"Just to move on completely for you and accept the truth that you didn't want me more than just us as friends but... it didn't work, Ji.
It's too hard.
My heart still forcibly telling me that it chooses you."
The first tear escaped in your eye.
"I don't know... maybe that girl might be falling for me now but I guess I can't make it sure for her that I will catch her because...
It's still you, Jihyo. I still can't help myself but to keep on loving you even if you're hurted me. I'm too attached on you."
You cried as you confessed again to her again.
Jihyo's eyes glistened aside from the tears but also from the loving feeling being mixed as the man in front of her made her felt it that way... and probably the only person she would want to.
"Y-you mean t-that, YN?"
"I do, Jihyo. I love you so much, I can't fool myself again.", you nodded at you reached the side of her face to sway the strands of her hair blocking off her tear stained yet gorgeous looking facial features.
"What about you?"
"I'm sure as hell I do love you too, YN... and I'll be willing to hear those words only when it will be from you.", she confirmed. She reaches for your spare hand and locked it in her soft grasp.
Your heart swelled in delight at the touch of your friend who now turned lover.
"If that so... then let's make a new deal between us."
"Eh? What is it?"
"I may have been broken the first but I don't mind, it's worthless so scratch that... because I have a better replacement."
"And that is?"
"Starting today, let's have our feelings to be involved through anything between us and never lose it, Jihyo. Deal?"
"Deal.", she grinned and nodded at you.
She pulled your head towards her to land yourselves for a kiss that has was once only being done through lust, but now it was merely prompted by your enormous love with each other.
It lasted for nearly half a minute to savor the sweetness and happiness of having the love of your life to feel and built the same amount of romantic fond as you.
You two leaned away from the kiss and wrapped yourselves again for a grateful hug as both grinned largely at the embrace.
1 MONTH LATER
You ans Jihyo has reached your first monthsary together since both were officially proclaimed yourself as a couple.
And what better way to think of an idea to celebrate your special day together with than to ask her out for a romantic date tonight.
Jihyo went down to the stairs and you watched her as your eyes gazed at the dress that she newly bought days ago... this time, it was meant to impress you more as her boyfriend whenever you and her would go out which ended up being your favorite.
You felt touched as you realized that she chose to wear it for your date with her.
"Wow.", you gasped as you stared at Jihyo looking like a smoking hot goddess in front of you. "You look so beautiful and damn sexy in that dress, babe."
"Thanks", she giggled sheepishly. "I knew you would like seeing me wearing this dress, so I did it first time on our first date."
"Now I feel special, Ji.", you chuckled. You placed your phone in the pocket of your pants and grabbed the keys for your house and car.
"I'm so excited yet nervous! I can't believe we're having this today, you know."
"Same here, Ji.", you seconded. "But I know we will do well. It's for us, so all we have to do about it is to have fun."
"You're right."
"What do you want to do after this? Do you want us to go somewhere?"
Jihyo cupped her fingers on her chin as she thinks. Her face shined as an idea appeared in her head.
She looked at you and her expression changed to a playful one.
"Hmmm... I think bedroom being next will do~", she placed her hand on your chest and gently rubbed it as she cooed after leaning closer into your ear.
"We can end our night with our own kind of fun by having you all by myself, and you would love to do same for your babygirl... right daddy?~", she purred whilst wearing that devilish smirk as she leaned away to look at your tensed reaction.
"Y-yes, babe.", that's all you had to say at that seducive move by your girlfriend. It surely does a blessing to have this woman all by yourself and proudly claim her as your property.
"Goddamn, Jihyo that's so hot."
"I knew you would say that. When did I never?", she teased you again. She returned back from acting normal as she looked at you seriously, cooperating with your stare.
You cupped her cheek and caressed hrr tender skin with your thumb. She hold your hand and pushed it further to her while doing it. "This is so sudden but... I just want to say thank you again, Jihyo. Everything. I can't wait for us to have more of this in the upcoming future as all of me will remain loving all of you forever."
Jihyo was touched and blushed at your sweet message. "We're gonna have more and more of this, I promise you YN and I can't stop me from wanting it too.
I truly fancy how you're not just the type of person who just talk that talk and instead believes that action speak louder than words.
Through that I can feel how much you always love me, and I would be really glad to be on your side most of the time, from moonlight till sunrise." (Author: Wow, cheesy. Lels.)
You and Jihyo kissed once again, just two lovers sharing pure love with one another and wants to be strong in their relationship.
"Are you ready?"
"With you? Always babe.
"Great. Let's go now to our monthsary date, babe.", you said to her before you and Jihyo make your way out of the house with hands holding tight at one another.