Fuck you Silas. Who gave you the right to go ahead and leave me alone here? Sure I never minded studying or anything, but now that you're gone school kind of sucks. Like, a whole fucking lot. I see you everywhere I go, even the library. Which is weird because I only saw you in there once. You remember that? You interrupted my studying and we got chewed out by the bitchy old librarian. I was so annoyed at you then, but, god, I'd give anything for even just one more day like that. Hell, I'd give anything for five minutes like that, if it meant I got to see you again. Makes me regret all the times I blew you off, all the times I told you I just wanted to be left alone. Because now I am alone and it's just about the shittiest feeling in the world. There's so many things I wish I could tell you, but there's one thing that I'll always regret not saying. I love you, Silas. God, I love you so fucking much. And now, now it's too late. It's too late because I'm a fucking idiot who doesn't know how to say what he's feeling and you're a fucking idiot who left me here alone. That's a pretty shitty thing to do, you know. And you can bet your sweet little ass that the next time I see you, I'm going to beat the shit out of you because you're a shitty friend for leaving me. Oh god, I just-I love you a lot, okay?
