#jj rants.

[local-loudmouth]

TW: mention of picking @ scabs

ok Ik i said i was going to bed but- I was doing smth research and-

I think I finally found out wtf is wrong w/ me

It’s called “dermatillomania”-

I don’t wanna self Diagnose or anything but-

I do have a Habit of Doing the stuff listed-

So uh

ye-

“Yay me”

[local-loudmouth]

I keep waiting and waiting for the school year to be over bro (rant under cut)

Mostly because is been absolutely SHIT-

but then I realized what if next year is too?

Also summers coming up soon

and I’m scared to go swimming and stuff cuz uh

yeaaaah…

actually I’m just kinda scared right now ngl

I don’t wanna make more enemies man

Imma be honest, ever since I’ve moved here nothing has gone right. First it was family stuff, and then new schools-

it was like, a lot of pressure and stuff

AND YALL SHOULD HAVE SEEN HOW STRESSED I WAS FOR MY SCIENCE PROJECT

I honestly don’t know how much longer I can keep up with it anymore man

I’m at the point to where I’m almost gonna give up

I swear every fucking day is just a repeat of the last

OVER

AND OVER

AND OVER

AND FUCKING OVER AGAIN.

I hate being alone but I’ve also kinda just learned to accept it? i was better off staying quiet. It’s not like anyone would have noticed anyway

and look how pathetic I’m being right now

Basically just feeling sorry for myself

I’m just so sick of everything.

don’t get me wrong, I love y’all! Alot! Tumblr is my escape man. I don’t know I guess I’m just done

I don’t Even know what to do anymore if I’m being honest

I give up

not to mention it’s not great for other people either

for example a close friend of

mine is being treated..let’s say,” unfairly.”

I wished I could help him more but

I really cant

and I hate being not able to help and watch the people I care about suffer so much

I hate it

I honestly hate me.