Broke up with my Boyfriend yesterday after we slept.
I think I made a mistake. We were headed into that direction if nothing changes within the year anyway. So I had the idea of just doing it now and getting it over. What I did not anticipate is How much I actually really love him.
We may not see each other eye to eye sometimes. We may have made mistakes and hurt the other unintentionally. However, we were working in it. A lot. I love him and truly do. I don’t want to lose him in my life or maybe this is just the emotions talking. We broke up amicably on his terms just earlier than intended. It was fucked up as we cried together naked in bed.
Am I doing the right thing? If so, why does my heart feel so heavy?
After I ate dinner last night my stomach was acting up. Acid, I thought. Must be the situation. I lost my appetite and just wanted to stop. I looked incredibly heartbroken and so did he. All that raced in my head is that I no longer want to go through with it and return to the way things were, but I know deep in my heart that I can’t because nothing changes if nothing changes. I just hope I did the right thing. If not, this is one of the biggest regrets in my 20s.
Losing someone I love just because if a situation we have no power over.
I still love you JMAJ , born on March 29. Our Monthsary is on September 30. Went official on December 15. I will wait for you and watch you grow into the most amazing person you are that I know of. I am proud of you always. We will see each other soon. I will never let you fully go.
