Blind Pt. 1 -Joe Sugg Imagine #6
Hey, guys! I’m back from holidays. It was magical. Anyway here’s my first two part imagine, I hope you like the first part. Love, Kat xx.
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Joe, when you receive this letter I’ll be gone. I know you probably didn’t know this but I’m miserable. I can’t live like that anymore. You know, you’ll always be my best friend, my soul mate and the one I’m trusting the most. That’s why I’m writing this letter, you have to know why I’m doing this. Because when you and your one night stand are awake I’ll be gone and I’m not coming back. I can’t. Because what you don’t know is, that every night when you’re gone, having a night out with your mates, it’s hurting me because I know how it ends. You end up with a girl you don’t love in our apartment, with me on the other side of the wall, wishing you hadn’t brought her with you. Every morning after that, I’m making coffee for you and her, smiling, introducing me as your best friend although I wish I would be more than that. Yes, Joe. Every time you complained about being single I was there, wishing you would finally realize, that I’m the one you’re looking for. Because I’m in love with you. This night I finally admitted to myself that all the hope, all the effort and all the love I put into our friendship will never make you love me back. Never. And that’s alright, I can’t make you love me. But if I’m living with you, having to be around you every single day I’m not getting over you. So I decided I’ll leave. For you. For me. For us. I’m sorry. Please, don’t try to find me. I’m gonna be save I promise. I’m gonna call you, when I’m ready, I promise. Be safe, I love you so much, Joe. Y/N
He folded the letter neatly together and put it back down on the counter. “Who is it from?” The girl, Susanna or something like that asked with her mouthful and a cup of coffee in her hand. Coffee, that Y/N made before she left. “My roommate. It’s just a list of groceries I have to buy.” He lied. Everything in him felt wrong. He could practically feel that she left. The whole apartment felt cold without her. “Huh, are you planning to cook tonight?” She asked, probably wishing to be invited. He just wanted her to leave. “You know, I actually have a meeting with my personal trainer, I’m sorry, but I have to leave, so…” She understood. “I’m gonna go then. You have my number, call me if you like.” And with that she left. Joe sat down on the coach, and wondered why he never figured out that Y/N was in love with him. He decided to call his sister, the person who has known her as long as him. “Jooooe.” “Zoe, do you think Y/N is in love with me?” He jumped straight to the topic. Zoe got serious. “Well, isn’t that obvious?” “You mean you noticed?” “Eh, yes Joe. Actually I thought the two of you were dating as you moved together.” “We weren’t.” “Yeah, I figured that much, thank you Joe.” “But… how is it possible that I never noticed. Why didn’t she tell me?” “Because you have girl after girl. She’s heartbroken every time you bring someone home. I think she is afraid to tell you the truth.” “Well, not anymore. She wrote me a letter. She left, Zoe. All of her things are gone.” “Oh, Joe.” She sighed. “What do you mean? I’m single, I can do whatever the fuck I want. I didn’t know I was hurting her.” “Yes, you can. So do whatever you want, I’m trying to call her.” And with that she hung up. Joe sighed. He was getting annoyed with Y/N. How could she think that he knew what was going on? If he had known he wouldn’t had brought any girls with him. They could have worked it out. But she had to go and ruin everything.
It was Saturday and the last week Joe was pretty occupied with work so he didn’t think about Y/N too much. Not until he was home. Every night he would shout “Hello!” in his empty apartment, remembering too late that she wasn’t there anymore. So he would make dinner on his own, watching a movie by himself and feeling this weird empty feeling in his chest. But it was the weekend and he was smashed. Another night out with the boys. He was rubbing his front side against some brunette, he had forgotten the name as soon as she told him. Jack had already left with a girl and Josh and Conor were making out with twins somewhere in the club. The brunette turned to him, looking up with that kind of look in her eyes, that told him she wanted that he’d make a move. So he leaned in to kiss her, but before their lips could meet he heard Y/N`s voice in his ear. “You end up with a girl you don’t love. It’s hurting me. I love you.” Joe backed away, turning around leaving as fast as he can. Y/N was right. He was constantly complaining about being single, but when he was out he never looked for a girl which he liked. He was looking for a girl he liked to fuck. He was never interested in them as a person. He called Caspar, desperate to talk to his best friend. “Joe? Where are you? We were looking for you but you were… occupied.” “I’m… outside the club, it doesn’t matter. Why didn’t you hold me back?” “When? Tonight?” “All the times I made out with a girl I’m not interested in.” “Well, you seemed interested.” “Caspar, I’m serious. I’m taking an uber to your place.” “This is about Y/N, isn’t it?” “I don’t even know about what it is anymore.” Joe sighed. He was tired and angry and worried he had ruined a friendship that’s the most important to him. “Alright, I’m gonna sleep, you should too. I’m coming over tomorrow and then we’ll talk.” Joe agreed, hung up and called an uber to drive home. Alone.
In the morning, Joe woke up with a pretty bad hangover, rolled out of bed and walked down to the kitchen expecting coffee. He had forgotten Y/N left. He as looking at “her” place at the counter where she would normally sit, greeting him with a smile and a giant cup of coffee. That was when it hit him. He let the tears flow and cried. It was all his fault. He lost his best friend, because he took her for granted. How stupid can he possibly be? That was the moment the bell rang. Joe pulled himself together and opened the door. Caspar stood infront of him, clearly as hungover as him. “Hey, buddy. You look like you need a hug.” He closed the distance between them and engulfed the shorter one in his arms. “She left Casper.” “I know, mate. She slept on our coach for two nights before… leaving completely.” “What?” Joe wiggled out of Casper’s grip, looking at him in disbelief. “Joe, I love you and you’re my best friend but you treated her like shit these last months. She called me last week in the middle of the night bawling her eyes out asking me if she could stay for a few days. I agreed and she told me everything.” Joe groaned. “Why haven’t you told me?” “Because she didn’t want me to. She was miserable, Joe. You broke her heart.” “I know that much, thank you very much.” Casper made himself at home, making coffee and looking in the fridge for something edible. “So last night you asked me why I’ve never stopped you from getting with all these girls, huh?” Joe nodded. “Easy. Are you remembering any of them?” “Almost all of them, yeah. Why?” Casper turned around. “You really are blind, aren’t you?” “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY?” Joe yelled, getting impatient. “They all had similarities.” “Yeah, I think I’ve got a type then. Not that rare, is it?” “They all looked like Y/N, Joe.” Joe was shocked. “You’re kidding me.” “Mate. I thought, when you had all these girls, you just wanted to distract yourself because she wasn’t loving you back.” “That’s impossible. I never loved her that way. We are best friends.” “Yeah, I think you’re just unaware of your feelings then.” “Don’t talk me into loving her, because she cried at your shoulder the night she left.” Joe was getting angry. If he really was in love with Y/N he’d realized that by now. They were almost like siblings, knowing each other because their parents are close. Enough time to fall in love. Which he hasn’t. “I’m not. I’m trying to get your crippled heart out of the shell you’ve put it in.” “Casper. I’m not arguing with you over my feelings. I know best what I’m feeling.” Casper just shrugged. “Sure. Whatever you say, Suggy.” With that he turned the TV on throwing himself on the coach. But Joe’s head was spinning with thoughts. Everything was so different and fucked up and he missed Y/N like crazy. She always had an answer to all of his problems. Now she became one of them.











