John Mode - made you feel
And now, a new type of post on flyoutlet. This time, the spotlight is on a specific song I’ve been listening to a lot lately, and now it’s yours. It’s John Mode - made you feel.
The first time I heard the song, just the start of it surprised me. The way John used a reversed vocal sample to open the song, it just seemed like such a different approach to me. The fine keys and strings underneath just made me easy, it made me feel like I was on my way to a setting much like what’s on cover art.
At first, the vocals just reconciled in with the rest. At first. When I started taking the vocal and the track apart, the thoughts and emotions appeared too. “so many times I heard those words but they didn't reach.”
Short and simple really, addiction. It’s sort of my own story about it.
- John Mode.
I got more into trying to comprehend what John was talking about. Something was clear. There was a relationship. This relationship was obviously neglected, with John saying “at the time I didn’t care what it made you feel” over and over again, but why? Distracted by my questions, the song builds, and the drop leaves me without words. It sounded so bright and wide with its saws and with the vocal chops, just consolating in this situation.
For each verse the person becomes more aware of his own issues. From the beginning he is too captured in his thinking that he isn't able to care or think about other people. Gradually reality comes in and it becomes a harsh journey of realizing that you might lose the one person you love the most in the road of recovery.
With John’s explanation it seemed easier to understand. In the first verse he was deaf to the words that tried to warn him. In the second he realizes that someone actually believed in the things he could do, and in the third, he dusts off his shoulders to take a new look at the things he can do. Although he can’t get her back, he wishes for her to see the new him.
At times it has been hard to keep working on it, mostly because of the message. When you're writing something personal it's hard to stay objective since you get so caught up on the emotion that you're trying to deliver.
The second build energized the song majestically, but I have to say the third drop really took the prize, putting away my words for that build. Instead of taking my breath, the short snare-break in this drop allowed me to breathe and experience it freshly.
Listen to John Mode’s “made you feel” here (or on this page):
soundcloud.com/johnmode/john-mode-made-you-feel
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