This here is my bear of a brother #jordanmatthewuribelopez or just #jordanlopez as he loves to randomly say. He is not very verbal and is considered severely #developmentallydisabled but I believe he is more than special and he specifically has a high level of #intuition. Just a few minutes ago as I was helping him out of the shower before brushing his teeth, I was thinking about a certain someone I used to work with and ideas I have to further establish and propel the work we have already done together. Said not a word about it to my brother, but he kept saying this person's name repeatedly. Was weird to hear him say it because I had not used the name around him before, but he knew it and does know many more things. Somehow though, he is locked inside himself emotionally and creatively. Sometimes I feel he has not progressed but rather has shown a reversal in his development at times. I can display examples daily but choose not to provide videos or photographic evidence. Just want to say I love him dearly and feel throughout the last few decades, he at times has been the only reason I still alive. I keep telling myself I must be around to help in any way I can indefinitely and might have to make the choice to be his legal guardian sooner than later. He does not have an ig or fb page and will not be able to see this, and we really do not need any pity parties, but I am proud to call him my brother and appreciate the unconditional love he has shown me. Because I definitely have been a bad example and neglected him at times, still am and do really.