#journal mood

[eclipsenaturalremedies]

Again, applied for work and got a interview video call as awkward as that was she told me it's on the job training and I have years of customer service experience . She told me she would get back to me in a week. Then after a few days my application is denied. I see the job post again. I apply again... Then I get denied. I have been trying to get into a good job and I wrote the recruiting team about it. They told me there's other candidates but it makes no sense since the job was reposted. Tons of companies just posting fake jobs to get us in and tell us to fuck off right after? Then they complain why they don't have workers...

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I broke the wheel

I've just come back to this virtual place of mine by chance and I couldn't resist to write something. I don't know if I will use it again, I don't feel the need to type down my feelings or impressions anymore. But maybe I should: somehow it was part of my inner processes, and it helped me to keep my ability to see the beauty around me, even in the darkest times. In my latest post, dated seven years ago, I was craving to break the wheel of dispair that trapped me for many years. Just in case you were wondering -and probably not- it hasn't passed much time since I was able to breake the endless loop. Now I'm trying to find my way, signed by the weight of fear and anxiety of the shadows from my past. Too often it doesn't seem to be finished at all, and I can't tell if it actually is. But surely, and finally, something beautiful moves on, and I'm riding the wave.

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Time passes

Time flew away, many things happened in these years, and it’s strange to realize I’m exactly feeling like when I started this blog. Realizing that so many things are changed, and yet some others keep on repeting. I will try to break the wheel, let’s see what will happen.