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I just want to let you know that I am doing a little better. I’m still blue, but my flowers are slowly growing. I don’t feel like myself. I can't put my thoughts together. They're clashing against each other. With a huge bang, like glass hitting hard grounds. Time, every minute passes by with ever stranger I meet. I can't seem to slow down the things that are happening around me. You're right. Some people are not fit for some things in this world. And that's okay. Because that just means I'm meant to be somewhere else. My mind doesn't quite feel like it's in the right place. The balance is off and the storm is upsetting. My head feels clouded with raindrops and ice. My attention isn't here and I feel cold and empty. How can I feel empty but feel so heavy? Like I can feel reality weighing on top of my shoulders and I keep forgetting how to breathe. I'm learning, slowly but surely, how to slow everything down and take one step at a time. I've never been in this position before. This is all new and overwhelming for me. I'm scared of the future. But I've got no where else to go but up. I can do this. I know what I want, what I need in life and no one is going to stand in my way. I'm beautiful. And I am worth everything I have to offer to this world. I'm so in love. And I wouldn't trade you for anything in this universe. I will succeed and I will find peace. (-: