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January 25th, 2014.
As I am writing this Im sitting outside my hotel room in California. This whole weekend I'm spending time with family who doesn't live in Washington. I feel whole and like I can live forever in pure happiness being surrounded by my loved ones. This is short but, If you surround your self with people you truly love, and they truly love you back, you will be whole. Yours truly, Alyssa.
January 20th, 2014.
A part of being a high schooler is feeling lost, That is what every one tells me when I bring up the fact that I feel lost as a person. But do they really know what feeling lost is? When I walk into school the feeling of being lost is almost equivalent to laying in an open ocean with absolutely no idea of direction. "Being a teenager is feeling lost, you'll figure you'll figure collage out soon" that's not the lost I'm talking about, the lost I'm talking about is when you feel soul-less, you've lost the spark of light that motivates you or makes you feel warm inside. The lost I am talking about is the kind that makes you feel cold, The kind where you feel like an icicle on the edge of a house ready to fall and shatter to your death or crack . And if you crack, it feels like pain, pain, pain that adds up to you trying to fall off the edge of this house to finally shatter and be done, to melt away with springs sun. To leave behind the life that was so dull and gray for maybe a new one that will be better, to leave behind a dark past that really does haunt you. The past can haunt your dreams you know? They creep on you and crawl down your skin and give you goose bumps that rise all over your body, this feeling is equivalent to a gust of winter air that's full of frozen bits of water. Feeling lost if like being placed into a maze, it's just as confusing and mind clenching as trying to solve the math problem on your end of course exam. When your lost you feel like nothing matters, like nothing can save you, like it's almost time to give up on everything that surrounds you because there's no point. Your just simply a body with a soul that is soul-less, and has no desire to live. That is truly what being lost is, not even the sun can save you.
