#uninpressed

[apinchofsanity]

Wow Eurovision is boring this year, where are all the cool people in tinfoil and shit? WHERE IS THE WEIRD?

[moscatoangel]

February 1st, 2014.

Happy February first my luv bugs! In twelve days it'll be my birthday. In twelve days I won't get a birthday phone call from my dad, not that I'm used to it. The last two years he hasn't called, if he did it was a week or two late. But I don't expect a call or gift from him. That's okay because now I'm used to it. I'll be 15 and for the last five years I've learned to grow up with out a real dad (yes I have a step dad whom I love but you know? It's not the same) But it's a part of life and I know that one day down the road I'll have to talk to him again, I'm not ready yet. I guess I grew up a little faster than some people. I think for my birthday I'm getting a record play ( thank you ba$ed god aka mom and stepdad ) and what I truly want is a long heart felt letter from someone who notices things that I don't know about my self someone who loves me more than my self. Scratch that, I want all my friends to write me a eulogy even though I'm not dying or having a funeral. Maybe that's what I want, but who knows my emotions change everyday and I could want a huge birthday in a week. But who knows nobody really does. Nobody understands me, I don't understand myself, will anyone every understand me? Probably not. That's all for now. Yours truly, Alyssa.

[moscatoangel]

January 25th, 2014.

As I am writing this Im sitting outside my hotel room in California. This whole weekend I'm spending time with family who doesn't live in Washington. I feel whole and like I can live forever in pure happiness being surrounded by my loved ones. This is short but, If you surround your self with people you truly love, and they truly love you back, you will be whole. Yours truly, Alyssa.

[moscatoangel]

i changed my url, was probvbly, now uninpressed. Still alyssa xx