#journeyofleo

[satanrighthands]

ANYTHING FOR YOU, LEO.

"Can you repeat it again?" I said whilst looking at you laid on the damned floor.

"Anything, anything for you, My Leo, anything. Use my body, use my soul, use everything of me, Leo. Please, please."

Pathetically saying that, begging for the miserable life you had, covered in bloods of human, and now SAYING THAT? Are you lost your GODDAMN MIND? You are pretty, your silky black hair, the smells is so nice makes me addicted, your glossy pink lips but why it turn to be so red?

"Oh pretty." I'm on my knees for you, I'm caressing your fluffy cheeks, the cheeks that used to have dimples, but now it covered in reds. "Hehehe, then, I can use everything on you, right?"

One of my elbows hits your shoulder, quickly holds you just because I don't want you to get away.

"It hurts. Leo."

I know it hurts, I perfectly aware it fucking hurts. Would you hold it? Would you stay for your Leo? Because... Hardly jab was meant for your stomach, no, no, no it isn't just one time punch, launched that punch for multiple times. The melodic groans are my favourite, feel it, FEEL IT.

"Leo, stop, please."

"Please, Leo. STOPPPP!"

No, not yet, not enough of pain. Stood up and grabs my own cutter. "Look what I got." soon as I got it, I show it, it is my purpose to make your brain thinking your end is near.

The blunt side I held while making an art on your chest. Don't worry, I won't make a quick trails on yours, it should be a nice long path on your body. Bloods are spilled out from the gap I made, the screams you make are difference than you made when we have sex. I like it this one.

Oh, I wanna make it longer and longer again, but the urge to thrust your slutty cunt are raising, so it should be doing. Hardly thrust the cutter into your cave, scratch it like a fingers inside your, making it bleeds so badly.

"Oh, are you squirting blood right now? Hehehe."

The other hands of mine punches your side cheeks for few times, wrist of mine whose held the cutter making a movement toward your stomach then scratching it there until it makes holes. It's actually hard to make it since I need to get through your organs first and even make you screaming your last breath.

"Anything, right?"

The situation turn to be more fucked up since your dead body turning me on so much. Anything, huh?

No one will know that I preserve your body with a subtance, treat it right just to make sure it isnt get rotten. Oh, I love your cunt when it don't get wet, I just need to get my lube and use you like a fuck toy. Real fuck toy.

Oh, how down bad are you for me, My Toy. Hahahhaaha.

[satanrighthands]

Lalu, sekarang apa?

Ketika sudah semua aku lalui, sekarang apa? Aku menunggu mati, tapi tidak pernah kunjung tiba. Aku memaksa kematian untuk hampiri, tapi terus menolak. Lantas, sekarang apa?

Pernah tidak merasakan bahwa hidup sudah berjalan seharusnya, tapi ada satu titik di mana dirimu ingin keluar dari kesaharian tapi tidak pernah bisa?

Bukan tidak ingin keluar, bukan juga tidak ingin melompat, hanya saja, tidak bisa.

Rasanya seperti berada di dalam lingkaran tak terlihat, tidak tahu apa yang ada, hanya bisa menjalaninya saja.

Tuhan? Sudah lama entitas tersebut tidak aku percaya, aku lebih percaya kepada Sata dengan segala pengetahuan, gereja tempatku tinggal lebih baik dari dunia luar.

Namun kali ini bukan tentang itu semua, inu tentang bagaimana aku keluar dari kebiasaan setiap hari.

Kalau boleh jujur, aku lelah, aku ingin mati bukan karena aku tidak sanggup, melainkan aku hanya ingin mengetahui, apa yang akan terjadi ketika aku mati.

Tapi, apa aku akan bertanya kepada diri sendiri nanti?

"Lalu, sekarang apa?"