#jtkchu is toxic

[jimkirkachu]

it feels horribly "revealing" that one of my best-received posts of all time is a series of screenshots from a fandom that has absolutely nothing to do with any manifestation of Star Trek

where the hell is the "Just Stop Thinking About It" button/switch/whatever in my brain???

[jimkirkachu]

I just wanted to let you know that you’ve written some of my absolute favorite fics I’ve ever read in my entire life. I’m so sorry someone said that to you and I honestly have no idea what they were talking about because your writing has gotten me through some really rough days.

I understand if you’re not in a place to hear this, I just wanted to let you know. 💙💛💙💛

Thank you so much, friend 💙💛💙💛 I really appreciate your readership, your support, and your encouragement. I don't deserve any of it, and I'm shocked and humbled that anything I wrote could have had such an effect--so thank you even more 😔💔💛💙💛💙

I just mentioned this to someone else, but if there's anything I've put on ao3 that you might want to have permanent access to, I would advise downloading it. I feel so bad that my work hurt someone and I don't want to risk doing the same thing to anyone else, so my account or fics might be deleted/orphaned sometime soon. If it comes to that, I'll mention it here and on ao3 before I do anything, but... no time like the present, better safe than sorry, I guess.

Thank you again for being so kind and generous to me 😔💔💜💜💜 And please take care of yourself. 🖖💙💛

[jimkirkachu]

Hey, I just wanted to let you know that I really like your K/S stuff on ao3, and I'd be really sad if you deleted it! I enjoy coming back to it a lot

Thank you so much for reading my fics... and for your support 💙💛💙💛 This has been a really difficult couple of weeks/months for me and at this point I'm still not certain what to do, either with that review or with my ao3 account in the future. I've "hidden" the offending story for now so that others don't have to encounter it and potentially be hurt by it.

At this point... I want to tell you that if there's anything I've posted on ao3 that you might want to keep having access to, please download it. And I swear I'm not trying to be melodramatic or fish for compliments/pity or anything like that. I'm just so ashamed of myself and I'm afraid of hurting anyone any further, so I truly have been very seriously considering orphaning or deleting my fics (to be honest, I've been considering that for almost 2 years now). If I do, though, I'll make a note of that decision here as well as on ao3. You're probably one of about two whole people who might actually want to download anything I've written, but even so, I promise I won't delete anything without some kind of heads-up.

Thank you again, x infinity, for your kind, sweet, generous words and heart 😔💔💙💛💙💛💙💛 I don't deserve to have souls as good as you reading my stuff or this mess of a blog... but that fact makes me all the more grateful for you. 💛💙💛💙

Take care of yourself, friend 💜