this is going to get me yelled at
but a sad youngtaek fic that goes over how the two of you fall in love and then break up and then finally grow back together over the following years . and it's based on ikon's flower and. yes. Oh. oh oh oh "you don't know what it's like," and his breath comes out in a ragged exhale. the wind whistles past your ears, messes with your hair and you cannot bring yourself to care right now.
"every time i close my eyes and i see yours instead," he says, "every single time i think about autumn and then about you and about how i do not have you. cannot have you. you have no idea, do you?"
you cannot even bring yourself to speak. something's wrong with your throat, your tongue seems too heavy to move and your chest feels very, very hollow.
youngtaek smiles but it hurts as if he'd cursed at you instead. "you have no idea," he repeats. "because none of this"- and he gestures between the two of you before allowing his blunt words to split your poor heart in two - "ever meant anything to you like it does to me."