Sonder
Obscure Feelings drabble prompt meme | Sonder
She had never given it a thought. It wasn’t until she had joined high school that the fact she was considered ‘odd’ was said in her face, specially with being an orphan. Frankly, she had never considered the reasons behind that but humans are… strange.
Their actions, their choices and what motivates them, all of them is strange. But they live they want, each one of them and it hadn’t been until the group had been formed and other people’s lives got involved in hers that she found each one of them had their aspirations, wishes and secrets. Some of them had decided to open themselves to her and others not.
She had never thought of letting others close and now what was she supposed to do?
The realization is a bucket of cold water thrown at her. nausea builds up on her throat and she excuses herself from the group’s lunch and goes to the toilet, pouring all regret. Silently, she steps out and almost jumps when she sees Eisei offering her a tissue. Seconds that felt like minutes passed and she wants to go back to the bathroom.
“… are you going to take it or not?”
Why? Shouldn’t you wish me away? She looks at the bruised cheeks and brown eyes and stares shamelessly, knowing well he will hate her more after this. But being gentle and kind isn’t possible, not when her insides are screaming, telling her to stop the aching, the pain, the terror. Eisei deserves more than what he has and his life would be better without her in it.
“… Takeba,” the surname feels foreign and right, and she supposes it’s father’s influence, meddling with how she balanced her life for years, “… don’t try to be nice to me when we know better.”
She takes the tissue and runs away, cheeks pale from being caught at a moment of weakness. somehow, if her heart were the same as previous years, she feels that it would be umping hard, the adrenaline and impulse at covering her fears increasing her paranoia.
