#july 2 2016

[taekooktimeline]

July 2, 2016:

Tae is piggybacked by Jk for most of a song regardless of it being tiring

Jimin looks on with a smile.

(https://youtu.be/MysmSwaHf3c).

(final Screengrab from taekook OT7 - https://youtu.be/jBDpWl0IHK8, timestamp 9:30)

[wordsgluedtogether]

I thought I was walking on safe ground, but it turned out I was walking on a lake frozen by winter and you were as warm as the summer sun.

no ground is safe

[glowinngeyes]

Look at that.  Oh my gosh.

July 2, 2016 @ Sunrise, FL [x]

[sunsetsformyles]

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32 Bars - (Myles Parrish)

[hades-tries-gardening]

7/02/16

Everything in decatur was shut down because there was snow on the ground. It was May. I was walking back from my place of employment (i guess idk why else i’d be leaving from wherever I was to go home like I would if school was cancelled but that’s what was happening). I was walking down Ponce on our side of the street with the Parish church. I had just walked past that bush with the speckled leaves and the newly done sign indicating it was a Parish church, when I saw Kaitlin Kemp. She must’ve been back from Chicago for the summer. She waved at me and I walked over  and I asked her how she was and instead of replying she took my face in my her hands and kissed me on the lips. She broke the kiss after about 45 seconds and said she was good, I was confused. She told me I should call her later. I agreed and continued to walk down Ponce to my house. I was still confused. When I got home I heard the phone ring and the receiver announce that it was CSD calling, it was the robocall we all wait for anxiously to hear if school has been cancelled. Except instead of a robotic voice it was a woman’s voice, she sounded out of breath. I concluded that she was the new superintendent of CSD trying to make herself look like was a people person, enough to call in the cancellation herself. She started the normal script. “City schools of Decatur’s is calling to tell you that tomorrow, May (insert date here) that school is cancelled due to inclement weather and-” She stopped reading the script. Simon was outside pointed with his pale hand and an outstretched index finger, towards the sky. The entire world seemed to fall silent as I opened the door to see what Simon was pointing to. 

“Go outside.” The woman’s voice said on the receiver. “Look your bitter end in the eyes, face your deaths.” Her voice remained calm but still out of breath.  “Go outside and bear witness to the end.” The phone call ended but the dial tone sounded endlessly. The only sound in my head was the droning of that tone.

Simon was pointing at the black billowing clouds that were quickly filling the sky. My stomach flipped because suddenly i knew this wasn’t some crazy thing that happened that i would talk about at parties, “that one time it snowed in may”. It occurred to me that maybe there would never be a party for me to attend in future. That maybe this was the end. 

The end was starting and we all just stood and pointed at the sky while we waited to see what the clouds would do. We were bearing witness to the end. 

(BUT APPARENTLY NOT BECAUSE SOME STUFF HAPPENED AFTER) 

We were in this store that was all black with white lights on the floor, it was very chic considering it was essentially a CVS equivalent,  and the only other customers were a pageant girl and her overbearing mother. I wandered into the makeup isle as i often do, and found this mascara called “unichrome” (like unicorn and chrome, get it? nice going brain). It was rainbow mascara that had a metallic quality to it and I thought it’d be perfect for Pride so I grabbed it, it was the last one. The pageant girl was behind me when I turned around and i moved out of her way out of the isle. She looked where unichrome was and found it was empty, and pointed and pouted to her mom. Her mom was upset. So upset in fact that she followed me to the checkout and waited for me to put down the unichrome on the table for the cashier and then snatched it and got back in line to check out with the mascara. I asked the cashier if she had seen what had just happened. She shrugged. She asked me if wanted to report a theft or call 911 “or something”. I asked her if 911 would even be appropriate. She shrugged again. “911 is so outdated. You should call infinity”. I asked her what their number was. She shrugged.

We left without unichrome. 

[ivorycoastdrugrun]

July 2, 2016

D wakes up around 8 to pee. I and D have breakfast and swim. Good times, D missed her. D goes home and gets ready for work. D's family visiting from Mexico stops by. D goes to work and chills with the night crew. Jose and Minnie ask D all about Europe and D tells them about how awesome it was. Minnie and D are searching for an ice cream machine ball. "Fuck it man lets get lab coats" D listened to really good music while cleaning. After work D, Moni, and Gaby got ice cream and hungout. "Ay lets get half baked and then get baked" A very scary movie was rented and Eduardo was born.

[chellexo]

Then: July 2, 2016 Now: ??

What is your biggest mistake in life? Then: Not spending more time with family members Now: How do you feel today? Then: Pretty good; nothing too stressful today Now: What did you have for lunch today? Then: Haven’t had lunch yet Now: What friend do you tell EVERYTHING to? Then: My sisters Now:

What are you wearing? Then: New Nats shirt and new jean shorts :) Now: It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, what do you do? Then: See who’s calling and have a mini heart attack, thinking the worst Now: Are you waiting for something? Then: To get my Cursed Child book, to possibly go to Texas, and to find more direction in life Now: When was the last time you cried? Then: A couple days ago, just from stress about the future and random anxiety Now: Is there someone you will never forget? Then: Family, lots of friends, and other people who have inspired me & impacted my way of life Now: At the beginning of last summer, who were you in a relationship with? Then: No oneeee Now: Do you regret anything you did in the past three days? Then: Not exercising as much & eating terribly Now: Do you hold grudges? Then: Not really Now: Does the last person you kissed with mean a lot to you? Then: I definitely care bout his well-being, but I haven’t talked to him in over a year, so he’s not really in my life anymore Now:

Do you wear flip flops during the winter? Then: Sometimes, lol Now: When things get bad, are you more likely to blame yourself or somebody else? Then: Myself Now: Do you like Chinese food? Then: Yes! This ain’t gonna change. Now: How often do you straighten your hair? Then: I straighten my bangs almost every day Now: Do you look decent when you wake up? Then: Not usually lol. But it depends on whether or not I took a shower the night before Now: Do you like meeting new people? Then: Somewhat...I’m just also very self-conscious & find it tedious putting on that mask that I usually do whenever I meet new people Now: What was the last thing you drank? Then: Baja Blast, lol Now: Last thing you ate? Then: Chips & salsa Now: Do you miss someone? Then: Yep. My grandparents and great-grandma, old friends, my brother who’s in flight school, my cousins & other extended family members Now: Are you planning on kissing anyone today? Then: Nope Now:

What colour are your eyes? Then: Green Now:

Do you think relationships are hard? Then: Seems that way Now: Are you a type of person who cares what people say about you? Then: Yes, definitely Now: Something you’re looking forward to in the next month? Then: Maybe going to Texas, maybe going to New York, my brother and his girlfriend coming home for a week Now: Will you be in bed in the next 20 minutes? Then: Nope! Going to a baseball game soon Now: Does seeing couples in love make you mad? Then: Nope, but I’m a little jealous Now: How many people have you had strong romantic feelings for this year? Then: 0 Now: When was the last time you changed in front of someone? Then: Maybe in the last couple of weeks Now: Are you going out of town soon? Then: Maybe, back to Hburg Now: Do you have a good relationship with your mother? Then: Yep :) Now:

Do you still talk to your FIRST love? Then: Haven’t had one yet Now: What was your FIRST alcoholic drink? Then: Wine at church when I was 17 Now: What was your FIRST job? Then: Movie theatre Now: What was your FIRST car? Then: Nissan Sentra Now: Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? Then: Myself Now: Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Then: Mrs. Bagatini Now: Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Then: I think to Salt Lake City? Now: Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk? Then: Drew, and nope. Now: Where was your FIRST sleep over? Then: I think Rikki Davis? Now: Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? Then: Brigitte or Christi Now: . Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? Then: None Now: What was the FIRST thing you did this morning? Then: Scrolled on Instagram Now: What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Then: Jonas Brothers 2009 Now: FIRST broken bone? Then: None Now: FIRST piercing? Then: Ears Now: FIRST foreign country you’ve gone to? Then: Germany Now: FIRST movie you remember seeing? Then: Charlotte’s Web, maybe? Now:

When was your FIRST detention? Then: 9th or 10th grade, for not having my school ID several times Now: Who was your FIRST roommate? Then: Besides my brother Shane, it was Gaby Now: What is something you would learn if you had the chance? Then: Guitar or singing Now: Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for your hand in marriage/ you asked to marry? Then: N/A Now:

What was the FIRST sport you were involved in? Then: Gymnastics Now:

What were the FIRST lessons you ever took? Then: Piano lessons in 2nd grade. Now: What is the FIRST thing you do when you get home? Then: Take off my shoes Now: Who do you think will be the next person to post this? Then: Idk Now:

Are you ready to get out of this town? Then: Not really. I’ve left enough towns...but then again, I’d be okay to leave f I had a chance somewhere else Now: What are you doing tomorrow? Then: Church, and maybe a mani/pedi with the sisters & mom Now: Are you the oldest of your siblings? Then: Nope, 2nd oldest. But I’m the oldest girl Now: Have you ever crawled through a window? Then: Yep Now:

Whose bed did you sleep in last night? Then: Mine Now: What were you doing at 4am this morning? Then: Sleeping Now: The person you fell hardest for, how many times have you cried in front of them? Then: None Now: Do you wear converse? Then: I don’t have any currently Now: What does your last text say? Then: My mom saying something about buying us shorts Now: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three days? Then: Yes Now: What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Then: Sleeping Now: Do you smile often? Then: Yep Now: Would you cry if you found out you were pregnant? Then: Yes Now: Have you ever been caught doing something you shouldn’t? Then: Yes. Now: What’s the connection between you and the last person you texted? Then: Mom Now:

Have you had alcohol in the last 48 hours? Then: Nope Now: What does your last outgoing text say? Then: It was to my mom about shorts, lol Now: Did you have a dream last night? Then: All I remember is something about One Tree Hill, haha Now: Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Then: My mom, I think? Now: Do you think two people can last forever? Then: In a relationship? Yes Now: Is there one person you look at and automatically smile? Then: Gigi, my kitty Now: If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for? Then: Happiness for my family and I Now: Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Then: Not really Now: Where is the shirt you are wearing from? Then: Housing fair at my college Now: Are there any bruises on your body? Then: Yep, not sure where from Now: Do you want your tongue pierced? Then: No! Now: Does anyone know your MySpace password? Then: Haha, maybe. Except I haven’t used MySpace since I was like 14 Now: Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone? Then: Yep Now: Do you curse in front of your parents? Then: Sometimes, lol Now: Do you ever get good morning texts from anyone? Then: Not currently Now: Who was the last male you talked to? Then: My dad Now: Have you ever been out of state? Then: Yes. Now: Your best friend needs you at 3 am, do you go help them? Then: Yes Now: Do you find smoking unattractive? Then: Yes Now: You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get? Then: A small cross on my hand Now: Currently wanting any piercings? Then: Maybe my cartilage, but I don’t even wearing earrings as it is, sooooo Now: Have you done anything sneaky lately? Then: Always, ha Now: Is love really worth fighting for? Then: Yes Now: I bet you miss somebody right now? Then: Yep Now: Do you know anyone that smokes weed? Then: Yes Now: What colour underwear are you wearing? Then: Purple Now:

[pan-to-rice-blog]

Sacrifice

Dear Rice,

I’m scared I’m going to start letting myself go now because we’ve started being exclusive. I don’t know if it’s because I’m just tired or trying to focus on other things now, but I’m upset I don’t have the drive to bike to Yoga or ballet class the way I used to. I went for a 5 miles run instead. I felt immediately better after doing it, but the idea of biking 15-20minutes somewhere to go work out for an hour and then come back still sounds exhausting. I don’t know I got the energy before. 

I’m relieved to not be dating other people anymore. Online dating was fun and exciting at first, but after a while it just gets old and exhausting. The fact that I only see you ever other week because of you new contracting location, is kinda nice. I still have time to myself and when I see you we spend quality time together. However, the one thing I’m really upset about is giving up the mind blowing sex I was having with my ex lover. Lol... I don’t think you should read this journal anytime soon now. But you’re giving up stuff too. If it wasn’t for me you wouldn’t even need to fly back to SF. Lose all this sleep, be jet lagged. I’m happy my past relationship taught me this. I never realized my ex used to come back every weekend so he could be with me. Thought never occurred, but now that I do realize these things, I take your flying back as a sign of your affection and commitment towards me. So I really appreciate it. I hope it shows.

Something I also feel like I gave up is intimacy during the week. It’s good you told me that your other girlfriends were upset that you didn’t text back right away or consistently. It kinda made me realize this was how you were and I shouldn’t take it personally that you’re a horrible horrible texter. Lol. Which isn’t making our long distance relationship easier. But when we are together, it’s the easiest thing in the world. Maybe I like being a little dissatisfied. If things were too perfect, I feel like I would get bored. I accept that you’re a horrible long distance communicator, but it doesn’t mean it doesn’t still upset me. But those dissatisfactions are example what I run off, or do yoga to mediate away. It’s a nice way to feel something and let it go. Seeing each other every other weekend, what we have, I think is the maximum we could go without seeing each other. If it was any longer, I think I’d feel like we didn’t even know what was happening in each other’s lives anymore. I like that you are fully present when we are together, but when we aren’t you’re fully present where you are. Great you’re not on your phone when we’re together, crappy you’re not texting me much when we aren’t. Good comes with the bad.  

<3 Pan