#junkyd journal

[junkyrdsystem]

Life update

Our life is a little off kilter. We've been very dissociative the last few days. We don't know if it's because the body is getting sick or if some kind of outside force is causing it. It's causing issues with our other health problems.

We're forgetting to take medication, forgetting to use the bathroom during the windows we get at work to use the bathroom(there's only three major chances we have available to use the bathroom during the day).

We also haven't been being social outside of our host's partner for the hour drive it takes us to get home from work.

The only time we are consistently and constantly conscious is when we focus on a hobby or rewatch the host's special interests/comfort media

-Blurry

3/23/2026

[junkyrdsystem]

For some reason my mouth is like sore. Tongue, roof of my mouth, everything. And Ive got an inflamed taste bud. Shit hurts. And idk how to feel about it

[junkyrdsystem]

I wish we could go back in time to when things were simpler. When we were just a kid. When all this felt like a game of pretend. When you were this all powerful wolf god and I was just the embodiment of all our negative feelings in the world's most important game of pretend. One where a little kid got to grow up semi normal despite everything.

But thats not how our story ends. Now the stakes are higher but you're just as fragile as you always were. Now we both bleed from the actions of others and i can't protect us both.

[junkyrdsystem]

We're actually doing great at being all around better. We cleaned and decluttered our room two days ago. We're drinking more water and monitoring our food to try to lose weight again. Today we're only just now drinking a soda (we have a major caffeine addiction and are working on it slowly) as a reward for dusting, vacuuming, and reorganizing the living room.

Today has been a good day

-Grayson