⚜I'll always be by your side⚜
⚜Idol: Jeong Sagang▫TheEastLight
⚜Genre: Angst▫Fluffy ending?
⚜Warnings: Light Swearing
⚜Requested:No▫But requests are open
⚜Words: 2903
⚜Inspiration: 'Are You Okay' and 'Let me stay with you' by TheEastLight
⚜A/N: This is my second time writing it because the tumblr app's bitch ass crashed and deleted over a thousand words. I was in the mood, I usually don't write much more then 500 at a time. This was not proofread.
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You watched as he scrolled through her Instagram for the millionth time. It had already been three months but he still seemed to be as heart broken as the day she left him. Sagang stopped on another one of Yuri's photos. You remembered that photo, you took that photo.
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That day, as you liked to call it, was the real beginning of the end. It was the day of one of yours and Sagang's biweekly bestfriend dates. It was a, for lack of better words, sacred tradition the two of you had since you meet. But this particular day was about two months after Sagang and Yuri had started dating.
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You had just finished getting ready when she called you. She had left a message saying for you to get to her house as fast as you could. So you rushed there, thinking something bad had happened to her. But if you were being honest with yourself, hoping something bad had happened to her.
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You knew you shouldn't have felt the way you did, but you couldn't help it. Ever since Sagang had started talking about Yuri, long before they dated, you were resentful and envious of her. She filled your heart with bitterness. Sometimes you would try and tell yourself how wonderful she was and how happy she made Sagang. Because she was beautiful, intelligent, kind, honest, and so many more great things. But telling yourself those things only made the bitterness inside of you grow.
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You had gotten to her house, excepting some kind of tragedy, only to be greeted by her smiling face. That smile, that made even the birds soaring through the sky stop and stare. You hated it. Yuri had hugged you, thanking you for coming so quickly. She had told you she needed help getting ready. She was so indecisive when getting ready, and she needed , a beautiful girl like you to give her your opinion.
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How nice she was to you made you sick, but you only nodded, saying you'd help her. She pulled you to her room by your hand, as soon as you were there, pulling out several outfits. They were all so lovely, you were certain even her worst outfit was nicer then your nicest clothes. You had stared at the outfits, contemplating. 'What are you getting ready for?' You'd asked.
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'To hang out with you and Sagang silly.' Is what she had responded. You had stared at her in disbelief, it had felt as if someone had just punched you in the gut. 'O-oh I wasn't aware.' Was all you could choke out. Yuri had nodded, smiling, 'Sagang told me you wouldn't mind.' That feeling of betrayl was like a fire coursing through your veins, burning you from the inside out.
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You'd been shocked into silence, which had annoyed Yuri. 'Come on Y/N I need you're help. Which outfit would Sagang like the most?' She'd whined. You scanned over the outfits she'd layed out. Disgust, hatred, and betrayal filling your body. Though you didn't know who those feelings were directed at when you heard yourself say, 'The pink sundress, he loves sundresses.'
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She had hugged you, thanking you, and calling you her life saver. You didn't respond, only trying to suppress the urge to puke or punch her in the face. You weren't really sure which one your body was telling to do, but you wanted to do both. You had been so caught up in your thoughts that you hadn't realized she'd changed, until she asked, 'What's his favorite hair style?'
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You had wondered why she had to ask you when she was the one he was dating. But none the less you answered, 'Curl your hair, he loves when you curl your hair.' She again thanked you. Despite how you hated her, how much helping her made you hate yourself, you helped her. But not for her, despite what she thought, you helped her for Sagang. Because for him you would put your feelings of love and betrayal behind you. You'd do anything for him.
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So you helped her get ready, you had chose out her dress, curled her hair, did her makeup, even chose out her shoes. All in ways that you knew would make Sagang adore her more. By the end of your work, she looked like a goddess on earth. But you couldn't admire how you had dolled her up. Because you had made her look so beautiful for the boy you were in love with.
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She had thanked you profusely but you only nodded in response. You two had walked to the park to meet up with Sagang, arms interlocked with Yuri rambling on about how excited she was. When you finally spotted Sagang, he was waving the two of you over. 'Yuri, Y/N, Hi!' You didn't miss how he said her name first.
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Before you had a chance to properly greet him, Sagang had already pulled Yuri into a loving kiss. You turned away from them, disgusted and hurt. You were greeted with the sight of the rest of the boys going your way. 'Oh, I forgot to tell you I also invited the boys.' Yuri had giggled. 'We didn't want to make you uncomfortable by dragging you along like a third Wheel.' Sagang said as he patted your shoulder, 'I couldn't do that to my bestie.' He laughed, kissing the top of your head, he was just affectionate like that.
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But it all hurt. It hurt so much. They didn't want to make you the third wheel, on a day that was supposed to be just you and Sagang. Because he couldn't do that to his bestie. And he was right, that was all you were to him, his bestfriend. But you didn't then nor do you now, want to be his bestfriend. You want to be his one and only, the way he is yours, the way Yuri was his.
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And knowing that hurt more then you had thought physically possible. But you had laughed, 'Right, I'd hate to be the third wheel.' It was so fake, but despite how well you thought Sagang knew you, he didn't notice. 'Woojinie~' You called out. Leaving Sagang and Yuri behind you. 'Y/N~' He'd responded as you practically threw yourself into his arms.
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Although you were close with all the boys you were closest with Sagang and Woojin. If you were being honest, while you were Sagang's bestfriend, Woojin was yours and you were his. And he was the only one that knew you were in love with Sagang. 'Are you okay?' He'd whispered in you ear, hugging you close. You tried to calm you breathing and stop the tears from falling, before you spoke. But you couldn't do you just hugged Woojin tighter. 'I know, I know.' He cooed, rubbing circles into your back. 'You're so much better then her.' He sighed pulling away from the hug. 'Lets go do something fun, we dont have to stay here with them.'
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You shook your head, insisting you were fine. Despite how your heart was broken into a million pieces. But the day continued on like any other, certainly not like one of yours and Sagang's special days. You guys had talked, joked, and ate. You did things like the stupid teenagers you all were. You were in the middle of teasing Seokcheol about his crush when you heard Yuri's voice.
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She had asked you to take a photo of her. You had asked why you, but she was insistent that you were the best photographer out of all of them. With reluctance, you got up to take her photo, not wanting to make yourself look bad. She had immediately strike a pose. Not the she needed to, it was easy to take photos of her. She was so photogenic.
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The sunlight hit her at just the right angle, she truly did look like a goddess. The light reflected off her evenly tanned skin and dark brown locks. And it made her eyes look like they had tiny twinkling stars inside of them. And you took it, you took that photo. Forever capturing her immeasurable beauty.
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You drew your eyes away from the screen, away from that damned photo. "Lets go do something. Stop staring at Yuri's photos all day." You suggested patting Sagang's knee. "I just," He paused, sighing, "miss her." You cringed, no matter how many times he expressed his love and adoration for her, every time still felt like a stab to the heart.
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"I know you do Sagang, we all know you do but how are you ever gonna move on if you spend all your time staring at her photos, going through your old messages, and listening to her voicemails. You surround yourself with her and its not helping you." You sighed when he broke down crying.
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"I don't know what to do Y/N. I love her. I love her so much it physically hurts." He sobbed. You know, you know exactly what he is feeling. And it hurts you even more to see him like this. You wrapped your arms around him, pulling his shaking form close to you. "Its okay. I know that it feels like this now, but it won't forever. And I just want you to know that I'll always be by your side."
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Two weeks had passed and Sagang seemed to be getting better. He smiled more, he laughed more. And much to your pleasure he was always with you. Until he got a phone call. He had left you and the boys sitting in the living room as he ran away to answer the call. "Who do thinks calling?" Junwook questioned looking up from his guitar. "Hell if I know." You shrugged, leaning against Woojin as you opened up Instagram.
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You had an unopened message. It was from Yuri. She was telling you she was going to call Sagang and ask to get back with him. That she regretted breaking things off with him. "Don't do it. Let him live his life." Is what you sent back to her, only for her to say, "Its already done." As Sagang ran out yelling joyously that Yuri was again his.
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"Are you kidding me!?" You yelled jumping up. "She left you out of the blue with no explanation over a fucking text message! You've spent the last over three months moping around like an idot over some girl! And this whole time shes been with other people! But as soon as she calls you go running like she owns you!" You yelled hitting Sagang's shoulder.
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He stared at you in shock for a moment, before you could see his expression change to an angry one. "I. Love. Her. Y/N." He said gripping his phone like his life depends on it. "Maybe you dont understand what its like to love someone so unconditionally, because you've never even been in a relationship. But thats how I feel about Yuri. But if you can't stop acting like a stuck up bitch and support me like a good bestfriend, then you can get the fuck out of my life." He huffed angrily. All you could do was stare at him, that all any of you could do. "Go Y/N! I never wanted you here anyway!" He yelled pointing at the door.
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"O-kay." Your voice cracked as tears threatened to spill, "I'll go and I won't come back if that what you want Sagang." He nodded in response, that was all it took for you to be running away as fast as your feet could take you.
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No one had done anything to stop you, they were all to shocked to. Their brains still trying to register what just happened. After a moment of silence, Woojin stood up. And before anyone could say anything he was ontop of Sagang, beating the crap out of him. Sagang tried to protect himself but that didn't stop the younger's fists from impacting every spot they could.
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Eunsung and Seokcheol were quick to their feet, pulling Woojin off of Sagang and restraining him. Seunghyun helped Sagang, who's eye was already swelling and who's lip was busted and bleeding, up. "What the fuck Woojin!?" Junwook yelled. "She. Loves. You." Woojin's words were like venom. "She has always loved you. Long before you even met Yuri. But somehow you're too fucking stupid to realize how much she loves you. How she would do anything for you. If you told her to jump off a cliff, her dumbass would do it. Because she loves you. You told her to leave and what did she do? She fucking left! Because she loves you. And all she wants is for you to love her, but she wouldn't tell you because you are in love with that bitch Yuri!"
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"I don't believe you." Sagang muttered taking an uncertain step back. Woojin broke away from the two oldest, charging Sagang. He held him by the collar of his shirt. "Yuri was fucking around with a different person every day. You didn't know this because Y/N refused to tell you, she insisted that it would only hurt you more." Sagang shook his head, "How would she even know what Yuri was up to!?"
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"Yuri thinks they're friends. Y/N only talks to her because she doesn't want to be mean. Even though Yuri was part of the reason she's heart broken for so long. " Sagang stared shocked. "Fuck you Sagang." Woojin shoved him, Sagang landed on the floor watching as Woojin angrily stormed out the door that he caused you to run out of.
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Days had passed, Sagang had saw neither you nor Woojin since the incident. "Sagangie~ Whats wrong with you?" Yuri asked, taking Sagang's hand in her own. He stared at her for a moment before pushing her hand away. "Did you know Y/N was in love with me?" Yuri sighed, glancing at Sagang before quickly looking away. "I did."
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"Y-You knew?" Sagang gasped, standing up and moving away from Yuri. She stared at him sadly, "I knew before we started dating. She doesn't know that I know." "How did you find out?" "I heard her and Woojin talking about it. She was sad that you liked me so much. Woojin tried to convince her to confess to you but she said she'd rather continue the painful journey of being secretly in love with you. She said if she told you, you'd never want to see her again, especially because you loved me."
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"Leave." Yuri stared at Sagang in shock. "Sa-" "Leave Yuri. And don't come back." Yuri nodded, tears brimming her eyes. "Where are you going?" She asked. "To find Y/N."
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You were exactly where he'd thought you'd be. But you weren't alone. You were with Woojin. You two were sharing an ice cream cup as you leaned against his shoulder. "Y/N!" Sagang called out for you. You jumped up to look at him, half his face was swollen and bruised. "You did that?" You asked Woojin, who only shrugged, taking another bite of ice cream. "I wasn't going to let him get away with treating you like that. But anyways, looks like he wants to talk, so I'll leave you guys be. " Woojin stood, turning to Sagang, "But let me find out you upset her again and I'll do alot worse then last time." Sagang nodded as Woojin left.
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You sat back down, your back facing Sagang. "What do want?" Sagang sighed, sitting down next to you. "I came to say I'm sorry." You looked at him, squinting your eyes in judgment. "Do you really think I'll forgive you that easily." You scoffed when Sagang shook his head. "No but I want you to hear me out," You looked at him curiously. "And please don't interrupt." You nodded.
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"Woojin told me that you're in love with me." "I know." "Don't interrupt me Y/N. I didn't believe him. Maybe somewhere in the back of my idiotic mind i knew he was telling the truth. But I refused to believe it."
"Why?" You questioned, not having the courage to look at him. "Because I love you." You looked at him, thinking this was some sick joke. "I'm serious Y/N. I've always loved you. But I was convinced you loved Woojin. So, I forced myself to move on. And I met Yuri. She was so beautiful and nice. Eventually I fell for her, but she could never replace you in my heart. And when she broke up with me, yeah it hurt. But I forced myself to stay caught up on her cause if I wasnt then I would be caught up on you. And I didn't want to be caught up on you, i thought if you found out how I felt about you. You would leave me. You would not longer be by my side." Sagang was crying by the end of it and so were you.
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"I'll always be by your side, because I love you more then life itself Jeong Sagang." "And I you." Sagang pulled you into a kiss. That was the beginning, you and Sagang both knew it in your hearts.
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