Making a plea for help and no one answering cause everyone’s too selfish to actually be a girl’s girl or spend the time trying to help someone out.
Everyone’s so afraid to give their opinion or think any harder than the simple obvious solution that doesn’t work when you better understand the situation.
I’m scared. Constantly. Even if I don’t seem to be. I only appear strong and unfazed because I can’t afford to let these men know that they do hold power over me with their sexuality and sexualization of who they imagine I am.
I feel hunted. I’m always anxious and stressed but I keep it to myself until it spills from me like this. When I feel like I must action to extricate myself from their reach.
And no one I’ve spoken to about it will even spend the appropriate amount of concern besides a male coworker whose idea of a solution could get ME fired by HR or sued.
Everyone’s too tired and preoccupied with their own life to spare me the energy and time for help.
Even my mother oversimplfies and doesn’t quite grasp the potential danger this position she’s forced me to stay in may bring me.
She’s put my job above my safety and wellbeing.
Because ignoring men and saying no should alway work shouldn’t it? And you’re just overthinking and complicating it all aren’t you?
I’m always hoping for the best but preparing for the worst because I’ve seen what men who want something from you would be willing to do.
I want to be a girl’s girl but when my own safety feels like it’s been put in jeopardy I’m not ashamed to admit that I’d be willing to throw someone else under the bus.
If you’re comfortable with sex and drinking and being more liberated with your body you may not feel the danger I feel pressing down upon me but as someone who fears sex and holds tight to my own discipline being trapped between two interested men who have shared a woman before, I’ve never felt more threatened.
No prince will come save you, princess. Run for the lesser evil if it’ll grant you more safety than the other.
Roll the dices on your choices. You may not always be right but what matters is that you weighed the odds of your safety and tried to restore them in your favour.