#just daniel things

[rainbowboys-7]

• Oldest member

• Konglish

• 1/3 English Line

• "Cutie Daniel"

• LA Boy

• "I'm from LA!"

• 1/3 Gamer Boys Line

• A Hidden KARD

• Former YG Trainee

• "I'm not introducing my sister to Jaehwa, that's for sure..." (Why?) "Oh, why? No reason..."

• Confuses the boys

• Complete crackhead when playing games

• Soccer boy

• In the 97' line group chat

[nvmads]

Man I need to straighten up my act and start working on looking for my place. And saving. Going to the bar all the time is expensive

[dannylean]

Doesn’t it sometimes feel weird when you just end a conversation by saying nothing, only because you don’t know how to continue the conversation?  And then it feels like you’re at fault for this?

[dannylean]

When you hug a pillow that your crush just hugged, and it smells just like her, so you pretend it’s her, but it’s not her.

[danielconmy]

KLS Again

So this is my first real conversation outside my parents since I have started my KLS episode again. This is my fourth one in three years. I had plenty in high school, but they were different than the ones I have experienced now. All of these are my own doing. It is because I was drinking too much in one way or another. The other thing? I don’t even like alcohol that much so why do I try it? 

I will eventually get better and everything will seem like it’s fine, but the time that I am gone is just wasted. I HAVE to sleep a ridiculous portion of my day. I have no choice. My body just feels exhausted and makes me go back to sleep after doing something as simple as eating or going to the bathroom. I am always glassy eyed. I have no control and everything feels like some sort of dream that is on the line of being real and fake. This one is tough for me because control is something I need in my life. It is how I function correctly. Without it, I am a mess. Along those same lines, I don’t know what to believe. I literally have trouble deciphering things that are real and actually happening and things that have no part of being in my head. I am trapped in my own head, and in a second, everything just goes back to being normal.

I know that these past four times are my own fault and I have no one to blame but myself, but why can I just have the most wicked hangover? Why can’t my feet hurt for a couple days. When you takes someone’s mind away from them, you take away what they are capable of and leave what I am. A man afraid to wake up because he knows he’s going to feel empty because he’s having an “episode.”

[danielconmy]

Late Night Rambling

Maybe this is like a journal entry thing? Maybe and update on my life? I have no idea... rambling is fun and I am listening to music and this is when I get a rush to write I guess. 

SCHOOL

So, my life has been very interesting since I have made it back up to school! I am the sports editor of the school newspaper and starting next year, I will be the co-sports editor of the radio station. I unfortunately did not get the RA position. Since I did not get that, I will be living off campus next year, which will start a new chapter in my life. I will have to cook for myself and really work on upkeep by myself outside of a dorm room. I will not know the person I will be living with next year personally. On another interesting note, I was able to go on a date before spring break and man everything was great, just wish I could erase that goodbye. Hey it happens, I am glad I asked her on a date, but things don't work out and that's okay. My classes have been going great and I have kept up and even gotten ahead in most of my classes and it is really rewarding.

Family

My mom and dad are FINALLY able to live together again, My dad finished up his two-year work thing in Buffalo and is back home. My parents really are the only reason I am who i am today. They are the best role models I will ever have. Words cannot describe how they have directly and indirectly affected me. My sister and I aren't talking often, but she is busy, which is great to hear. I wish we talked more, but at the same time, we butt heads so often, that it is almost best we talk in small bursts so we don't get angry at each other. Overall, I am happy with my family and glad that I am apart of it the way I am. I really just hope I can make enough money to take care of my parents the way they took care of me. They deserve every penny from me and I am forever in debt for the fantastic life I have been given. This might sound dark, but I hope I am ready for when they move on from their life here. I have relied on them so much and I just want to be comfortable without them and be able to grow the way they want me to.

Random

I don't have much. I am not happy, I am not sad. I am just kinda living right now. Summer will bring a lot of differences in my life based off of how other people and I get a long and if I am able to get that internship. Overall, I can't complain and I am still happy I have made it to 20 years old and I still feel like I am thriving.