❛❛when you come home to me, i’ll wear a sweeter smile and hope that for a while you’ll stay.❜❜
THE LAST FIVE YEARS // accepting // @jxshw
it wasn’t fair, the way he puts on a brave face - full of confidence and cheer he DOESN’T HAVE, and says such heart-breaking things ( there’s so much discord between them ; things unsaid and festering in the depths of their tattered friendship ). there’s a desperate sort of feeling in her chest, constricting her ribs painfully the longer she holds his gaze, can’t make herself stop. every time it becomes too much to handle, the days and weeks spent avoiding him when she KNOWS it’s the opposite of what she should be doing. they both need time to recover, to comfort, to heal. need each other to do so. but he’s so broken ; so many little pieces spread across the stars that Sam can’t think of ever fixing him entirely. will always be twisted by the loss of his sisters, just like her.
❝ you know i can’t Josh. i CAN’T. not right now, i’m still ---- we’re all still so HURT. but i want you to know, that i will, soon. i promise. i miss you. ❞ because she loves this bruised and shattered boy. and she’ll always come home to him, but her hearts on fire and she can’t bare it any longer.
