dear!!!! jongin!!!!
Dear Jongin
I’m currently trying to decide whether I should attempt to be coherent in this letter or not. What if I accidentally write you a three-thousand word letter? I’m only kidding. I will always be grateful for having met you. I see so much of myself in you sometimes. Getting to know you was kind of like getting to know myself — does that make sense? You seem to know me inside out, sometimes I think you might even know me better than I know myself. No matter what I’m going through, even if there’s nothing you can do to help, you understand me, understand what I’m feeling and that is more than enough for me. It’s hard to believe that we’ve only been friends for like half a year or something because honestly it feels like I’ve known you forever. Everything’s just so easy with you, whether it’s joking around or having serious talks, and I never have to second guess myself. It sounds kind of awful when I say I probably can’t remember half the things we talk about, but that’s because we’re always talking about ridiculous things most of the time. Although I’m starting to think we talk about being trees a lot. But even if I can’t remember exactly what we’ve said, I will always remember laughing and being happy. You don’t even have to try to cheer me up, talking to you always makes me feel better. But I guess it definitely helps that we’re always so silly with each other.
I’d like to think that it goes both ways though. Just as how you seem to know me so well, I hope you can say the same about me as well, and I hope that you know that you can always come to me when you’re down. You don’t have to deal with it alone, you don’t ever have to deal with anything alone, really. You are so, so, so very important to me, and it means a lot to me to see you smiling and happy.
Also! You are my ultimate writing buddy. I think we work really well together, honestly. Even if sometimes that means a behemoth reply, and a lot of freaking out over the mess we’ve head dived into. But as we slowly go on this journey together, with each reply I add to our little document, I always feel this really strong sense of achievement because wow, we’re fucking insane. There are so many possibilities that we can explore and I’m really excited about it (even though we’re also really slow with everything, oops).
Lastly, I know things are real hectic right now, but I believe in you. If you feel tired, there’s always time to stop and take a breath, so don’t stress out too much, alright? YOU GOT THIS K. And then when December rolls around we’re going to be free birds and we can stay up all night talking about dumb shit without feeling guilty heh. 加油！
With much loveSoojung