#kai's rambles

[kaitheperformer]

oh im sooooo sick and the only to heal me is sending me pictures of popee sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[mastemamothpriest]

Been seeing lots or aro, ace and aroace posting so letme say my two cents as somebody in the aroace spectrum.

× Yes, aros can fall madly in love with somebody, almost as of it is a spectrum and not a box. You still shouldn't expect an aro to fall in love with you, you aren't entitled to our romantic love.

× Yes, aces can have a high sex drive, because just like last point, it is a spectrum, not a box. Still, again, you shouldn't expect an ace person to have sex with you. You aren't entitled to our sexual intimacy.

× Aces can be alloromantic (WOW) almost as if asexual mean asexual and not aroace! What a shocker!!!

× For the most shocking one yet... Aros can be allosexual (WHAT?!) I know! Incredible! But aromanticism can exist without having to be held by the hand by asexuality (mind blow!!!!) a person can be the horniest person to even exist and still be aromantic and repulsed by romance!

× last point, kind if a refresh BOTH AROMANTICISM AND ASEXUALITY ARE SPECTRUMS AND EVERYBODY CAN ACT/DRESS HOWEVER THE FUCK THEY WANT WHILE HAVING THESE LABELS. NOBODY FUCKING OWES YOU PROVING THEIR LABEL.

I hope this was helpful or insightful 😊

[kaija-rayne-author]

I went thrifting with the kids a couple of days ago and I'm still in so much pain it's making me teary. I don't cry easy. My therapist scolds me about it. 5 hours of shopping with two well behaved kids and I sat down through most of it. I could really use a wheelchair, but I can’t afford one. It would have to be electric, because my EDS is degenerative.

Guess I'm stuck in bed again.

I really wish people would understand that I would give so much to be able to just... live. Even the limited existence I had before covid was better than it is now. I can't go to a movie, or the zoo, or the aquarium. I leave the house for supplies and medical care. That is literally it. I risk my immunocompromised life every time I leave the house because people won't mask. I risk my minor children's lives and my partner's too. We're all immunocompromised.

I used to hike, ride horses, dance, bike, practice 3 types of martial arts.

Then I caught swine flu and my body gave up. I was diagnosed with me/cfs (which is now usually considered a post viral illness, meaning you got sick with a virus and never got better).

Then 3 years ago, I caught version 6 of the first wave of covid. I barely survived, but I never got better.

I honestly can't imagine how people can be so blasé about viruses. They can absolutely destroy your life. They've destroyed mine. I was healthy! I exercised and ate well! I was vaccinated! (Antivaxxers fuck off. I have science degrees, you're really badly misinformed.) I did everything right and it still took me down.

There's nothing you can do behavior wise that will guard you from viruses except masking, vaccinations, and social distancing. Setting up air cleaning options helps too, but since we can't even get people to mask, I'm not holding my breath on that one. (Har, har, I'm hilarious.) Vaccinations are imperative, but they don't do anything for transmission. They exist so that if you do get it, you have a better chance of survival.

And humanity could have defeated this illness 3 years ago. Except because selfish people wanted their 'normal' back... we didn't. PSA? Your 'normal' sucked a lot for disabled people already. It's worse now.

I do the best I can, but it has robbed me of so much. My scientific career, my ability to make a living that doesn't mean just scraping by well under the poverty line.

I can't hike anymore, or bike, the brain knowledge of my decades in martial arts and dance is still there, but I probably couldn't take a hit anymore. Being around horses again is an impossible dream.

Hell, just getting out of bed some days is an impossible dream.

I have nightmares of being without a mask, and people walk around bare faced.

I fucking guarantee there isn't a 'fun' thing on this planet that is worth living like I do.

The worst isn't when the virus kills you, it's when you survive it and have so little ability left.

And more people survive SC19 than die from it. They survive, but millions of people are already disabled from it and the numbers rise every day.

How are people not fucking terrified? How?

[kaitheperformer]

dr.popee sounds like huggbees in my head

[kaitheperformer]

oh popee the clown you are

[kaija-rayne-author]

Ugh. I feel like absolute crap. Had to shop yesterday even though I was already flaring from the shopping trip with the kids.

I've rebounded my damned headcold or caught another when the other was just going away.

Why can't people mask ffs!

Why do all y'all want to share germs anyway, it's gross. Icky.

And dear gods it takes my immunocompromised ass forever to kick even a headcold. Give us chronically ill people a break and please mask!

The winter of 2020 I didn't even get the flu. And the flu floors me for 6 weeks every year because I'm allergic to one of the ingredients in the vaccines so I can't get it. Two way masking absolutely works.

Why wouldn't people want to avoid getting sick? It makes no logical sense. Even a headcold is miserable.

And yes, I religiously mask. It's on my face before I leave the house and it doesn't come off except in a closed vehicle or when I get home.

But there's only so much one way masking can do when you're surrounded by selfish jerks who can't bother to care about their fellow humans.

And uh, if you're one of those people who wish they could get sick just so you have an excuse to rest, you're likely already chronically ill and overextending yourself. It's a trauma reaction.

[mastemamothpriest]

JELLY JAMM POSTS IN MY TL

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME REMEMBER MY FAVE CHILDHOOD SHOW OMG I LOVE RITA AND HER HYPERFIXATION FOR DODOS SHE IS THE BEST CHARACTER SHE IS SO ME

[mastemamothpriest]

bro what if I participate in mermay, but twist the prompts to be faun/satyr themed instead.

I just think it would be a cool added challenge to take prompts mainly made for water creatures and try to twist them into forest creatures.