Shironeki having books on psychiatry and psychology is seriously marinating my beef rn. They look like textbooks, genuine manuals for diagnostics and treatment. He has the resources to understand what is happening to him. He’d know intellectually that he’s depressed, experiencing psychosis and has PTSD from being turned into a ghoul and everything he faced after. He’d know he’s using violence as a coping mechanism and isolating himself, that the group he’s formed isn’t an adequate support system and they’re enabling him to ruin himself. He’d have the vocabulary to explain that to someone. He could know what therapies or medications could help him if he tried them. And he does nothing with this information. He’s made an effort to understand what’s happening to him and chooses self destruction anyway.
I guess with him being a ghoul there isn’t much he could do, he can only really cope in his own way and lean on those around him, but he would understand so clearly that what he’s doing is hurting him in ways so predictable they could describe a diagnosis and he continues to choose it. Keeps those manuals tossed on the floor next to the ones on medicine, so he can treat his wounds and know what hurts most when damaged, and the martial arts books to know how to damage them. Like… just let me hook up with him in a club bathroom already
