#kari's rant

[brownsugarbaybee]

I need to geek out

Warning: Sex Toy Talk

Sooo, at the pop up, there was a sex toy stall, and I was super shy about going to ask and look and stuff cause I've never seen any irl Anyway, the sales girls were so supportive and made me feel safe and calm and just like .. they literally were giggling at me feeling out cause I knew exactly what the things were but never seen any.

Anyways, I asked for recommendations for a first time you haver? Y'all my brain is on 2% and I'm tipsy. So, they asked me what I'm into and everything and then suggested 🥁🥁🥁🥁

The Rose 🌹

😖 but I ... Y'all, your girl was scared and excited cause I've seen that thing go viral and it's so cute and just like aahshdjfbdhdu there was also the wand and like this other one that penetrates but also stimulates the clit? I can't remember what it's called. 😭

Anyways... Yeah, I just wanted to share. I had fun tonight. First night out with my girls in a long long time. So it felt good to just be free and be me. Unapologetically.

[brownsugarbaybee]

My problem is I read long fics more than I study.

[brownsugarbaybee]

Feel awful rn

I wanna curl up and cry or scream but.. idk

[brownsugarbaybee]

Wait? When did I get to 400 HUNS?

I must be trippin'.

Y'all are saurr cute! I love each of y'all!

[brownsugarbaybee]

Your tags are weird asf is2g yall always play the victim card and the racist card but you never fail to mention it's BLACK reader. I've never seen any other poc from any other race to specifically mention the race of the reader.

If I mention it's a 'black reader' that's because the descriptions are that of a black girl. Whether or not other POC writers specifically mention the race of the reader, one can determine that by the descriptions of the reader.

My tags are to spread my work to the POC community, not for your comfort.

This is MY space. You can see the door.

[brownsugarbaybee]

My ovaries hurt. My mom told me to Google it, but I don't like what it says.😒

[kariimarii]

TMI

I'M SO CONFUSED ABOUT MY SEXUALITY

LIKE  HAVING A DATEMATE AND DOING ROMANTIC/SEXUAL THINGS SOUND FUN AND APPEALING IN THEORY  BUT TODAY MY BF KISSED MY THUMB BC MY NAIL WAS BROKEN AND???  DURING THE MOMENT I WAS RLY EMBARRASSED AND SHIT  NOW I'M THINKING ABOUT IT AND  I CAN'T TELL IF I'M LIKE  DISGUSTED?? OR BLUSHING??  BC MY FACE FEELS HOT BUT MY STOMACH IS DROPPING  LIKE I REALLY CAN'T SEE MYSELF KISSING HIM OR HAVING SEX WITH HIM OR ANYONE EVER?? I CAN FANTASIZE ABOUT CHARACTERS OR OTHERS DOING THAT BUT I CAN'T IMAGINE /MYSELF/  I NEVER MASTURBATE EITHER IT'S JUST WEIRD AND I DON'T ENJOY IT  IDK I'M JUST SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW

maybe it's bc it's my first time doing this kinda thing?? i may be just too embarrassed and noob for this

KINDA WANNA STOP THE RELATIONSHIP??? KINDA WANNA KEEP IT AT THE SAME TIME??

I'M SO CONFUSED WHAT AM I DOING

[everxlasting]

Kari's Rant #1

People have told me that when someone commits suicide or tries to, they're being selfish. I think it's wrong to judge (even though judging is all most people do nowadays anyway). How can anyone say, "He/She wasn't thinking of the effect they had on other people" so easily? For all we know, maybe that's what these people wanted-to be acknowledged and noticed. No one can judge a suffering person, no one can pass comments like this brushing aside the person's pain. After all, pain is pain, no matter how stupid, small or insignificant the matter is that caused it. And pain is a very real thing. Suicide is a cry for help, it's desperation to end constantly feeling unloved. So I wish that people would stop judging and start helping. That's all.