#kellisis corner

[maybememoriesx]

Looking for best friends!

Any takers? I miss talking to someone throughout the day about anything and everything. Having someone just be there for me and that I can return the support to.

[maybememoriesx]

Story time!

So ya girl was at work alone right, just for like an hour. I was waiting for other girl who was working and then our groups to come... So I turned the cameras on in the rooms and stuff already. I'm sitting there writing out the schedule for the weekend and there is legit what sounds like breathing coming from the monitor from one of the rooms. I ignored it for a minute and then it got louder and I look back at the monitor and see the lights going off like there's sound. So I turn my spotify playlist on and sit my phone down and continue doing the schedule. And my playlist keeps pausing and I'm like wtf.

Finally the group's and other girl show up and we do the games, this was the first time we really worked together so we're chatting and she brings up the place being haunted. So I tell her about what happened when i was alone. Lol we get through resetting the room and i show her some things in the building that she should know and then we go to leave. Her ride was there so she headed outside and I waiting in the doorway because my mom wasn't there yet and it's freezing raining. But I'm just standing there and all of a sudden there's pounding sounds coming from the top of the steps. Which i have never heard before. But I've heard stories of people showing up at the top of the stairs.

So ya girl just stood in the freezing rain for a few minutes after that lol.

[maybememoriesx]

I added some new things onto redbubble tonight.

If anyone would like to check them out. ^·^ or share. Anything is much appreciated.

‘Forrest blooms’ by Kellisi-Artx

There is beauty in the Forrest floor. • Millions of unique designs by independent artists. Find your thing.

‘Afterglow’ by Kellisi-Artx

Afterglow Mushroom found on the Forrest floor • Millions of unique designs by independent artists. Find your thing.

‘Crystal ball’ by Kellisi-Artx

What does your future hold? Only the crystal ball can tell. • Millions of unique designs by independent artists. Find your thing.

[maybememoriesx]

Not gonna lie.

Seeing some things on here gives me serious PTSD. You'd think I'd be over this, but it's been on my mind a lot lately. 😣

[maybememoriesx]

I'm going to just rant for a minute, because only like 2 or 3 people even see this anyway.

Ya girl is broke. I mean we're broke after buying enough groceries for two week for a house full and paying the bills that were due this week and have what will be dur next week. I know were honestly just so low because last pay when we paid the credit cards one double charged us and then when he had to buy insurance after being kicked off the government insurance (and literally the only thing we can "afford" is what we already had. Just have to pay for it now because he makes $100 over the limit for help) it charged us a lot earlier than it was suppose to.

But it's so hard to live honestly. I feel like I've wasted my life, I should have some kind of job by now. Not just "babysitting" and getting fucked over on pay because I'm too nice.

My husband shouldn't be the only one working his ass off. I am just so fucking afraid of people. Even on meds the slightest bad tone sends me off into a panic attack, or I just cry.

I thought maybe I could do a phone job where I don't physically confront people. But that was just as bad and just added to the list of fears.

And my art is such a waste honestly. I love creating it in hopes people would love to buy it and it just sits here. I literally have over a 100 paintings just collecting dust. I wanted to make it work as just extra money, but it doesn't. I know it's not the most amazing but I do make cute and cool things sometimes..

So now here I am trying to apply for places I won't be too confronted with people and that will hire with no real experience and it's nearly impossible.

I really don't know what to do. We're in our mid 20s and haven't gotten to experience anything in life. At this point it feels like we'll never get to. But I try to keep telling us that this is only temporary..

But is it?

[maybememoriesx]

I just wanna snuggle with some select people, my dogs and go to sleep.