keptonice replied to your post “if you want to know why the gear shift in content, its because i was...”
It makes sense. Last year there was a bomb threat at the LGBT community radio station I work at and it REALLY hit home that homophobia, and bigotry, has real and deadly costs and that one day I might run into someone who would want me dead for being queer. It's not you, it's a honest to god terrifying thing to realise that all those "death to jews" and "death to gays" stuff does actually result in death and you may have no control over it. I hope it helps to know that studies show the bystander effect has dropped a lot when it comes to confronting hate crime, so if someone ever did go at you, the chances are high people would step the fuck in and shut it down fast.
People are so fucking dirty sometimes.
I sigh at the bystander effect a lot, if only because the initial studies of it were kinda biased but yeah, most people are more willing to help nowadays. I’m just worried that whatever would happen would take out anyone that could do anything. or that things would happen to kids. its a thing.
i have to keep remembering i know how to fight when my brain goes “what if x” because i tend to go “i know nothing” and panic. All the first aid and everything disappears and i just. “my people will die because i wasn’t good enough” even though i... had nothing to do with it.
i think it comes down to, like, once you have a community, you care about it so much and hearing about things going wrong or threatening it hurt you even if it doesn’t touch you personally. And the worse things get, the more i worry you know.
