Dec 22, 2013
~ We stopped talking because I reminded you to much of your ex , I understand how you feel, I don't really but I can sympathize . I'm sorry if I stirred any memories .
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~ We stopped talking because I reminded you to much of your ex , I understand how you feel, I don't really but I can sympathize . I'm sorry if I stirred any memories .
Whats wrong?
~ Nothing is wrong :(
~ I sometimes wonder why people lie to me , or why It's me who has to find the truth about things . It's not just 1 year this has happened, it's always has been since I was born . Though when you think about it, I don't think I deserve such treatment since I've never caused anyone pain all my life . Though, there will be times where my emotions effects my actions and Id unintentionally cause some unfortunate things among the person who was the cause of it and because of it , I'm blamed for something I had no part in , why do people not blame themselves for the things they never shown to the person , I hate people like this , we say excuses for our foolishness , it's like Obama blamming Bush for Americas problems . Though it's probably because I'm not yet close to learning how to "Not care" and show apathy .
~ When I think about it, I'm like those masks that has a smile on its face but theres no emotion, if its anything that can describe me then its that .
~ I always find the hidden truth regarding people, weather its friendships or relationships, but do I deserve things kept hidden from me? no. Why? because I've not once in my life hidden anything from people, is it really fair? is this Gods doing or is it my blindness? but not caring has really helped me coop with my emotions, apathy is my friend for quite sometime now. To the point where I can no longer express myself, I say "I love you" "I'm always here" "Count on me" but do I mean? I do not know, I don't know what I'm saying 90% of the time because I have no feelings behind those words. I just hope that someone someday can bring me out of this misery of mine, a girl who will never hold the truth about things from me or even friendships. And I don't care how far she lives, people underestimate long distant relationships . Anyone can have an effect on people no matter how far you live . Only one person ever did and that was very long ago .