Needle in a Haystack // Saving Grace
Arms gathered her in and lifted her up. For half a heartbeat, she thought she was dreaming. Then it struck her that in order for her to be dreaming, she’d have to be sleeping and that, in turn, defeated the whole purpose of her presence in the infirmary.
Her eyes snapped open as she startled, finding abruptly that she had not been dreaming—not about being lifted from her chair by a pair of strong arms, at least.
She blinked blearily. “But I didn’t tell you it was safe to return.”
“After word of an attack here, did you think there was any possibility of my staying away?” Keydyn’s lips brushed her temple as he held her a little closer. “Nikus sent word it was safe. Aneria’s in Darnassus with Siryn and as safe as anyone could be in the whole damned world. My place is here.”
“Put me down, Keydyn.” She squirmed, twisting, trying to make sure everything in the infirmary was as it had been when she’d dozed off. Her husband held her tight, showing no sign he’d do as she’d asked.
Roiya froze, looking up at him and blinking blearily. “What?”
“I said no. I’m not going to let you do this again, dalah’surfal. I remember this pattern all too well.”
She sighed, sagging. “Please, Keydyn. Put me down.”
“Keydyn! When did you get here?”
Roiya winced at the cheer in her niece’s voice. Aekatrine had to be at least as tired as she was—how did the girl sound so bloody cheerful?
“Maybe fifteen or twenty minutes ago,” Keydyn said, shifting his grip slightly so Roiya rested more comfortably in his arms. He shot the young druid a smile as she rose on tip-toe to kiss his cheek. “Long enough to check in with the Wildhammers and check to see if there was anything I could do.”
Roiya’s heart stutter-stepped. “Did they say yes?” she asked weakly.
“It wasn’t anything that couldn’t wait until morning,” he said, finally setting her on her feet again. “Tonight is for watching over you, dalah’surfal. I’m not going to watch you rip yourself apart inside again. I came to make sure that doesn’t happen because it doesn’t do anyone any good.”
Aekatrine cleared her throat. “Sandy asked if you’d eaten, Auntie.”
She had, but it hadn’t been much. Her appetite had been nonexistent since the attack. “If you see her before I do, tell her she’ll see me in the mess for breakfast.” Roiya’s hand found Keydyn’s, fingers interlacing and squeezing hard. She looked over her shoulder, staring at Thoran’s furry back for a long moment before looking up at her husband, at the other half of her soul. “The only time I’ve ever felt more helpless was when you lay dying in my arms.” Her free hand drifted up, fingers grazing his cheek. “I hate it.”
“I know,” Keydyn murmured, leaning down to kiss her ear, then her cheek. “But running yourself into the ground does no good. These people—your friends—they need you whole, Roiya. They don’t need the fading shadow. They need you.”
She leaned against him, tears pricking her eyes. “You’re right,” she murmured. “Goddess knows you’re right. It’s just hard. I care about them. I need them.”
“It wouldn’t be you if you didn’t,” Keydyn said, his thumb brushing away a tear that had escaped despite her efforts to hold them in. “Do they know that?”
“I’ve tried not to let them know that. They’re safer that way.”
“Are they?” Aekatrine arched a brow as she studied her aunt. “I know that you’ve held a lot of people at arms’ length over the years, Auntie, but maybe it’s time to finally stop. Let them in.”
Roiya sighed, weariness suddenly pressing down on her like the weight of every single one of the keep’s stones. “Maybe,” she agreed, her voice faint, barely more than a whisper.
Aekatrine’s gaze shifted to Keydyn. “Take her to bed. She needs to sleep—probably worse than Da and I.”
“She’ll get it,” Keydyn murmured, his arm sliding around his wife’s shoulders. “Keep a watch over it for her.”
“I’m still awake,” Roiya said quietly.
“But not for long,” Keydyn said with a faint smile. He gathered her up into his arms again and this time, she didn’t protest, resting her head in the crook where his neck and shoulder met. “Sleep, dalah’surfal. I’ll be with you and your swordbrethren will be safe. I promise.”
“Mm. You’d better be right.”
He laughed quietly as he carried her out. “Aye. I’d better be.”