I miss Nil
I don’t know when I’ll stop missing him and it terrifies me.

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I miss Nil
I don’t know when I’ll stop missing him and it terrifies me.
I feel like fucking killing myself. 🙃🙃🙃🙃
Depressed
I finally told Nil that I will leave him alone so he can move on with his life with other girls. I think my heart broke again. It felt like all that I worked for while I was in Korea was for nothing.
Day 13
I’m getting by. I’m getting there. I am making progress and I am so proud of myself. Its hard, but there is no rush. I’m trying to get my mind off stuff soooooo idk.. lol.. I just wanted to make a quick update..
Week 2
I have been here for exactly 8 days and it’s pretty fun here. This was my third day of classes and I only had my film class 9-10, which is confusing on who schedules students like that.
My depression is always creeping up on me. Plus I think about Nil a lot. I haven’t spoken to him for two days? Its progress, but I’m going insane. I bought a membership, maybe I should just let out my pain by working out. lol
There are hills here, everywhere. So if people say I gained weight I will honestly find that hard to believe because I am constantly walking, hiking, etc. Even when I go to my dorm, first i gotta go up a hill then I gotta walk up to fourth floor. TELL ME???
Overall. I love it here. Everything is cheap, people are nice, they mind their own damn business. The language barrier is still a problem, but hopefully I improve or something.. TT_TT
They use this app called KakaoTalk as their messenger, but yeah they do have facebook but they dont really use it? Plus their plans dont have like unlimted texting, because I got one here. Also they don’t really use snapchat they have SNOW here. hahahaha its really cute. Its like the asian version of snap.
I’ll be writing here about my adventures in Korea and tag them if anyone wants to read this, but most likely not just because of my past content on Tumblr.
What I've done so far
Things I did today I woke up and Mei told Sheen & I that Bu Sros found porn hub on Grandmas phone aka Tyty uses it. So I had to be the one to talk to him about it. I googled things how to talk to young adolescents. I called Medica and asked about benefits, what I'm offered, how much is covered. They were able to show me clinics around shakopee. Then I called my Vision insurance to see how much I am offered every year and glasses. Etc I was trying to go to library to print stuff out but today they didn't open till 1PM. I went to fill my gas and it was $30. I cashed my check & put $85 into my savings account. lol I wonder how long that will last. Went over to Jacobs at 1PM to hang out with him. His room was trashed as hell. I made an appointment today at 2Pm to get my eyes checked. Only my less side became worse. I don't think she wanted to make it a big difference. She said I could get lasik eye surgery if I really wanted to but she recommendI should wait until after college. Jacob and I met at chipotle. I saw old friends from high school Jaden & Loyd. They gave me a discount cause I bugged them. Lol but not Jacob. We ate and then I brought food for tyty at five guy. Damn two items and it was $10. Got home and gave tyty his food. Amanda Khon and Kevin were over. I texted Bianca if they wanna go to valley fair I'll take them. So at 4:50 I took them & I will pick them up at 8:30PM. I went to the library and printed out my papers to save and if the family is interested. I think it's something important. I tried finding a PDF file of my FAFSA. That didn't work lol. I got home and played with Sabrina & Sonita. They are wild children. Jumped on the trampoline with them. Kevin was taking a nap. I cleaned up some of Mr. Bun Bun Cage. I did my laundry today but I haven't gotten it out of the dryer yet lol. Watched an episode of futurama wild eating left over Chipotle.
Watching feast of fiction and doing this work training!
Got a new phone! With more GB